Steadygain's Groove and Trip Pad

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Oh let me pause for a moment. Have you ever noticed when a white guy is talking to others about an event like this they stress 'black' dudes - like that puts it on a different realm. Where if it were just a few white guys sitting nearby I would have said 'a few dudes were sitting near by'.

Had I been Black - I would have said a few 'white' dudes.

Anyway - I wonder why we do that - I mean what the F difference does it make??

I think this is a generational thing....the memory occured when the stigma was a little more prevelant. Not once have I ever heard my kids use a race adjective about their friends. As we have gotten older, we may have grown out of the intentional labels. But I have never been able to 'erase' the thoughts, feelings, and general state of mind from them. They are stuck there as well.

My $0.02 on psychology today:cool:
 
Wow !! Thanks for the great memory - I totally forgot.

OK - well I'm in high school and a girl in my neighborhood and I wound up going to the Stadium in Baltimore, MD. So we're sitting outside in this big parking lot - with a bunch of others around the place - waiting for the fireworks.

Well there's few black dudes sitting near by with the lovely herb and they had some papers but apparently none of 'em knew how to roll. Well -as occured on more than one occasion - my friend is straight as can be and quietly but scornfully says some garbage to me about these dudes.

Oh let me pause for a moment. Have you ever noticed when a white guy is talking to others about an event like this they stress 'black' dudes - like that puts it on a different realm. Where if it were just a few white guys sitting nearby I would have said 'a few dudes were sitting near by'.

Had I been Black - I would have said a few 'white' dudes.

Anyway - I wonder why we do that - I mean what the F difference does it make??

Well anyway so I'm watching these guys way more than anything else because they got a decent bag and obviously are anxious to smoke a few but everyone of them is afraid of looking like an idiot by rolling 'for the first time'.

So I'm like a dog at the table - just waiting for the opportunity. Well finally one of 'em looks in my direction - cool looking dude and gets this comfortable feeling that 'I'm the man'. So he motions me over like a genuine invitation and of course I'm right there within another second.

So he asked me if I knew how to roll - which I confidently replied and the whole group was thrilled to pieces. He asked if I'd roll 3 or 4 for them and then stressed I could roll a few for myself. It's funny because he's really being nice - but at the same time making it pretty clear that he and his group aren't about to smoke anything my lips have been on. :cheesy::D

Of course I'm thinkn' the whole time - man you gotta be kidding me. I'd a thousand times rather have my own; smoking just the way I want and have a blast.

I'd have to say - looking back on that - that was one of those unexpected super great times. Here I went with this neighbor friend cause she wanted someone to go with her - but we were not dating or anything I mean we're just friends. I was basically someone she felt she could call on - so I'm cool with that.

Here I'm a white dude ... longer hair :p ... encountering these total strangers.... It was good ... very good.

Well good night all
Steady my ole friend..you are one smooth mellow dude...I really mean that...I hate Racial labels too, from either side..I advise people that use them in my presence to not say **** like that, it only proves social ignorance...We are all one people in God's eyes..I'm sure he don't care what we look like..as long as our insides are sincere and pure to brotherly love..

10 more months and I'm gonna have a doobie as big as a Cuban cigar..then I may even smoke a Cuban cigar too....But I've been alcohol free since 92..My mind has been ever more focused since then..Booze will fry your brain..I personally can't see the need for the draino stuff ever again for myself..
 
Medicinal purposes even my pastor supports

I feel a need to elaborate on this...;)

Now please be cool cause I'm not trying to tell you or anyone else how to live your life. I'm simply reflecting on my own life.

On the whole ... back in the days when you were in diapers and before most of the MB was born we had the 60s ... which pretty much kicked off with the Beatles. THEY changed everything and for those of us 'born at the right time' it was the best change imaginable. Up till then everyone - and I mean everyone - had short hair and we didn't think of ourselves as 'confined and restricted' but they brought in a BEAT and a HAIRSTYLE that broke the mold and gave us FREEDOM. Jimi Hendrix pretty much did the same thing and was a huge part of the MOVEMENT.

So initially it wasn't so much that our lives and relationships were screwed up - or at least we sure as hell couldn't see that. Was way more the opposite - and getting high (here only with Cannabis) was part of that freedom. MUSIC was the center of everything and MUSIC was enhanced by its use and MUSIC was on the whole designed to keep this population florishing.

NOW - Regardless of whatever reason I (or anyone else got involved with Cannabis) eventually it (and every other drug) has the ability to captivate and take control. ONCE YOU CROSS THAT BRIDGE it is WRONG; it is destructive and blocks the ability to find 'TRUE HAPPINESS' and distorts relationships. There is no way you can be what you are meant to be - have what you're meant to have - or find what you're meant to find - as long as Cannabus, Alcohol, or any other drug has a 'hold on you'.

SO although I support the legalization of Cannabus - I am wholly against the typical "Medicinal purposes" excuse for using it.

On the whole I believe it's a mistake to use Cannabus - or anything else that has the potiential to become 'a regular part of your life' or anything that artifically dominates your existence.

I guess to me there is no possible substitute for wholesome clean living - and especially relationships that not only provide the 'Ultra Completion' - BUT all the more ones that can sustain it.


Steady my ole friend..you are one smooth mellow dude...I really mean that...I hate Racial labels too, from either side..I advise people that use them in my presence to not say **** like that, it only proves social ignorance...We are all one people in God's eyes..I'm sure he don't care what we look like..as long as our insides are sincere and pure to brotherly love..

10 more months and I'm gonna have a doobie as big as a Cuban cigar..then I may even smoke a Cuban cigar too....But I've been alcohol free since 92..My mind has been ever more focused since then..Booze will fry your brain..I personally can't see the need for the draino stuff ever again for myself..

Thanks man !!

There's nothing like 'UNDERSTANDING' and obviously we are connecting pretty good.

I'm thrilled for your MAJOR ACHIEVEMENT since 92 - that is really good.

In MODERATION - I think probably everything is OK - so maybe just that one time I could take a puff or two - but it would be very hard for me to do it. I'd have to shut out my family, my long standing reputation and so many other things central to my existence.

BUT I HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO PROBLEM with you being able to celebrate in such a manner. I simply don't have that freedom and won't have it for at least another 6 years.

PEACE MAN - BE COOL
 
Steady, you remember in Proverbs (or conversely the Pete Seeger song TURN Turn Turn)? To everything there is a season?

In attempt to clarify, growing up with a raging alcoholic parent really turns a girl off on "being out of control", at least it did me. Despite the fact I knew the name of the dealer in my high school and my younger brother recreated with the guy and experimented with weed (to my extreme dismay) after I left home. So no, MaryJ has never been a part of my own life, personally nor any other addictive illegal drug by choice, and alcohol you'd have to classify me as rare occasions and light use if at all. Can't say haven't been around tokers or smelled Birchie's sweet smell, mainly when I couldn't go very far from the scene at the time for reasons I won't go into, not important to the story).

However, having survived a badly mangled body for multiple weeks at a time 2x only thanks to scheduled morphine injections which at times didn't come nearly fast enough for the pain (and yes I went through very bad withdrawals 2x also-which were nearly as bad as injuries but withdrawals not regretted a bit comared to the shortterm benefits), and had a broken nose set as in-office surgery with doctor's use of coke once (and no I didn't get high that I could tell from that either), there is a time and place for everything that can serve a true medical purpose.

From what I understand, maryj takes pain of glaucoma and nausea of chemo and allows sufferers regain a certain quality of life they wouldn't have otherwise, the trade-offs should be ones weighed between themselves, their families and their doctors, IMO, if there is no other legal and affordable drug with less side effects available. Not my place to judge, I'm not in their shoes or living with their illnesses. Those who use recreationally for "medical" purposes, well, they hurt the case for those who really do benefit medically and that leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
 
The amount of medical MJ perscribed is less than what you could roll a single joint with. It's not going to get you high. Depending on how much morphine you could be perscribed as an alternative, the morphine could have more side effects - and not just "when handling heavy machinery."
 
Steady, you remember in Proverbs (or conversely the Pete Seeger song TURN Turn Turn)? To everything there is a season?

That is pretty much how I see it my dear friend - and THANK YOU so much for your willingness to be so open and real.

In attempt to clarify, growing up with a raging alcoholic parent really turns a girl off on "being out of control", at least it did me.

I'm sorry for this - I had some pretty bad stuff to deal with as well. You know first hand how 'horrible' it can be once the bridge is crossed and it turns from something that could have been healthy and acceptable - to just the opposite.

Despite the fact I knew the name of the dealer in my high school and my younger brother recreated with the guy and experimented with weed (to my extreme dismay) after I left home.

Hmmm - not sure what to say. I believe you have a much deeper sensitivity and therefore perhaps a more 'painful awareness' of how destructive 'addiction' can be. I'd say you had quite an advantage over your brother in matters like this.

So no, MaryJ has never been a part of my own life, personally nor any other addictive illegal drug by choice, and alcohol you'd have to classify me as rare occasions and light use if at all.

Alevie, PLEASE KNOW - I never thought for a moment any thing different - this is completely in line with what I knew in my heart had to be true. My comments were mainly to highlight 'the bottom line' of what we both believe on the deepest level.

Again I sincerely appreciate you confirming this truth so richly.

Can't say haven't been around tokers or smelled Birchie's sweet smell, mainly when I couldn't go very far from the scene at the time for reasons I won't go into, not important to the story).

We live in the world - I guess that's a requirement that's about impossible to avoid. ;)

However, having survived a badly mangled body for multiple weeks at a time 2x only thanks to scheduled morphine injections which at times didn't come nearly fast enough for the pain (and yes I went through very bad withdrawals 2x also-which were nearly as bad as injuries but withdrawals not regretted a bit comared to the shortterm benefits), and had a broken nose set as in-office surgery with doctor's use of coke once (and no I didn't get high that I could tell from that either), there is a time and place for everything that can serve a true medical purpose.

You have an incredible ability to see things and understand things that most with your background would be 'blinded to'. It takes a certain degree of humility - not just intelligence - to honestly have that kind of awareness.

From what I understand, maryj takes pain of glaucoma and nausea of chemo and allows sufferers regain a certain quality of life they wouldn't have otherwise, the trade-offs should be ones weighed between themselves, their families and their doctors, IMO, if there is no other legal and affordable drug with less side effects available. Not my place to judge, I'm not in their shoes or living with their illnesses. Those who use recreationally for "medical" purposes, well, they hurt the case for those who really do benefit medically and that leaves a bad taste in my mouth.

THANK YOU SO MUCH !!! for being who you are.

Silverbird - THANK YOU too !!

What a perfect way to start the day

PEACE MY FRIENDS - LOVE AND HAPPINESS TO ALL

Steady
 
We're good Steady. :) The post I responded to left me wondering what you thought I meant by my first post on the subject. Have a quiet day-I know that's got to be uncommon, but once in awhile, I hope you get one.
 
We're good Steady. :) The post I responded to left me wondering what you thought I meant by my first post on the subject. Have a quiet day-I know that's got to be uncommon, but once in awhile, I hope you get one.

I had no doubt what you meant, but I know you better than most.

I just wanted to make sure no one used you - or your pastor - as a means of supporting their 'addiction'. As a previous 'user' dwelling on my experience with Liz at the Stadium - I all the more wanted to make sure I wasn't feeding into any lingering cravings someone might have because they think I'm into it.

As for Liz, I guess I sounded kind of bad but amazingly she found I was pretty much available whenever she needed (or wanted me). So I could feel the 'coldness' or 'distance' as I was getting ready to lite up and I wasn't doing it to be disrespectful to her. Also would not have been able to just chill and float with the fireworks if there was a big rift. So I told her - 'You asked me to come and I'm here for you and only because of you. So please don't get an attitude because of this because it doesn't change anything - I'm still here for you. This is something I enjoy and I didn't bring it - it just happened so don't get hostile'. She defensively said something like 'I'm not getting hostile' and though I was still kind of a slime ball the air was better so it was cool.

It was rare I hung with Liz but towards the end of her father's life she and him would get in some fairly big conflicts and she'd confide in me and share a bunch of stuff. Anyway she asked if I'd come to his funeral and I'm like of you have to be kidding me - why the hell would I let you down on something like that when I've never let you down on anything else. I didn't say anything but I was kind of struck by the idea of saying 'No Liz - your Dad died and this is one time you really could use having me around - but I'll pass'. Well all I did was go to the church and sit in a pew - a little ways from her; but I was there and apparently it meant a lot to her. That's about the time I finished high school and I don't think we've seen each other since.

Mondays are pretty much guaranteed to be hectic but that's OK and I expect things to be busy. The thing that's really wearing me out is my general view of the Economy and the way PIMCO man spelled everything out. It's weird in a HUGE WAY because I honestly don't need a whole lot of money and would a thousand million times rather be happy with a super fulfilling relationship centered on the simplest things - than live in extravagence and not be happy.

I think it's just the IDEA that we have actually shifted to a completely new 'Outlook' and what has always been the rock solid 'Investment throughout the years' is something in the process of disappearing.

Birch had said something a long time ago about 'Consistent slow growth with Market Health' (or survival) - but I didn't expect this to be forced on us overnight and be locked in this mold for years to come. With Global Warming - World Tensions - and everything else mounting up over the next 5 or 10 years - I'm just hoping to save enough to find my little get away with Nature and find the dream.

If the song you're hearing is the Bryds version - you don't want it to stop. But you can always replace it with the Turtles 'Happy Together' and many of the other beauties from that era.
 
I am very new to this site, but always go straight to you and Birch. I have to say, and I know I will hear about this...but having divorced 12 years ago, I really enjoy the words of endearing wisdom found here...from MEN. Do I sound a bit jaded? I have yet to meet men with similar beliefs and values. Having served in federal law enforcement for close to 30 years, retiring in January, reading your conversations is a nice diversion.

I hope your friend who had the stroke is doing well.

I am holding fast...70% into C 15% S 15% I with 20% going in. When I actually see that in writing it scares me senseless! Praying for the best. Always looking for advice from the experts here.

AND...thanks so much for the lovely Mother's Day message...you're a gem!

Wow ! What a message - amazingly you rang the doorbell and said Hi :)

And I slammed the door in your face. :o

You caught me during a HUGE TRANSITION and I didn't know how to respond. I'm so glad it happened just prior to starting vacation because I needed time away from everything to really air a lot of things out and try to determine with a lot more clarity who and what I want to be - who and what I'm meant to be - how I view LIFE and God and Nature and the relationships we are meant to have with GOD, people, animals, nature and all the life it holds, our planet itself and the overall universe.

So let's start here: Your beliefs and values form the core by which everything is understood, appreciated, and valued. Unfortunately many of our beliefs are grounded from BIRTH - and are so rigid there is little (to no) room for flexability - AND THUS many of our most central beliefs are hugely distorted and DO NOT CONFORM with REALITY. The USA is perfect and everything it does is fully grounded in all things good - Justice, Liberty, Honor, Respect and the Sanctity of Human Rights; GOD is a 'Rule Maker' and rights and wrongs are always being weighed to determine your 'Real Value'; Girls play with dolls and Boys wrestle, and prepare for 'real life' like playing Cowboys and Indians to shoot the enemy and be good protectors...

As we grow some of our beliefs may change (hopefully for the better) and our values will change as well.

So FIRST - both of us need to agree that 'our beliefs and values' are the most fundamental aspects of our life. As LIFE itself is a process so to are our beliefs and values.

If we can start here - then I believe you will find that this 'Man' has numerous beliefs and values that are similar (if not identical) to yours.

Will come back once in awhile - as this is very deep and covers basically everything.
 
So FIRST - both of us need to agree that 'our beliefs and values' are the most fundamental aspects of our life. As LIFE itself is a process so to are our beliefs and values.


If we can start here - then I believe you will find that this 'Man' has numerous beliefs and values that are similar (if not identical) to yours.


Will come back once in awhile - as this is very deep and covers basically everything.

OK - in the remote event you're still around and I didn't totally embarass you to death, make ya mad, or whatever...:embarrest:

Let's start with MONEY - now that sounds fun doesn't it.

'our beliefs and values' are the most fundamental aspects of our life. As LIFE itself is a process so to are our beliefs and values.

In the beginning - from the earliest days - money was based on the thrill of buying things when it was available. I forgot how much I got but a quarter would go to the movie theater 10 cents for a coke and 5 cents for a candy bar. That's pretty much what I lived for and I never got tired of getting these treats when money was available.

As I got older it mostly went to music and parties :blink: and in retrospect I threw almost everything down the drain.

In high school I began to get a much deeper sense of God being the most wonderful - loving - perfect being imaginable and generosity took a huge priority and so I 'quietly gave' 50% of everything I earned to the 'offering'. My mother noted my lack of money and at the time I had no clue how connected and involved Mothers are with anything and everything to do with your life. So she had one of those heart to hearts with me - and figured I'd secretly been going through an Oz of pot every other day. Well to my delight I was able to show her how open my life had been and I wasn't into that garbage anymore. Instead I tried more and more to build on and tone my Spiritual Life and as I did 'I was increasingly drawn to give abundantly and found my needs to self indulge got less and less.

So that would be my FIRST MAJOR AWAKENING - She made me realize that only because I was living at home with everything provided did life look so free and hassel free. That it would take a huge amount to buy a house and everything else and that a Tithe of 10% was 'the expected and more than generous amount'.

So I began the change of spend thrift - to lesser spend thrift.

Then got 'ripped off' out of hundreds with my first job out of high school - by a Professional con artist; but it's cool because in the long run I learned to not get conned again.

Well as I matured - and I'm probably just comming out of a 40 year adolecence - I began saving more and more. DEBT was pretty much something I strived to avoid ~~ maybe as much as gonorrhea or whatever and I never got anything like that either - but avoiding debt was always a big priority.

Investments started with Guarantees like Federal Reserve Notes at 15% - Savings Bonds - and stuff like that.

Stocks largely started with huge active trading - especially with the Internet Bubble and I made a fortune but pretty much lost it all so it was a HARD LESSON.

Began to shift more and more towards Mutual Funds over the Long Term (much like the TSP Funds) and found them the BEST for me.

My 2 largest Funds I moved towards SAFETY before 2008 and though I didn't GAIN any thing outstanding - I didn't lose a penny. I think my Greatest and Most Important lesson was learning to trust someone else with the Biggest Portion and letting them manage it.

That's why I never check out any of the Stocks Birchtree mentions because I fully trust him and I don't want to compromise that trust. He's to this day the one I'd be most comfortable with taking charge of my nest egg.

So MONEY for me is mainly 'PEACE OF MIND' and that is hugely achieved by living simply. I try to BUY WELL and maintain what I have. I'm not stingy - but I think it's ridiculous to eat out 'too much' and on the whole I try to live right.

So days like today - when I stand out as such an 'odd ball' it's because this Site is meant to be enjoyed and our Investments should not be a huge source of frustration. I take the hits and losses and also take the gains. It's always a 'thrill' to dive in for an occasional dip and if I LOSE - I won't lose much.

For you the B&H strategy is by far the best option and holding on is way better than being an 'Active Player'. The rules have changed so much with 2 IFTs a month - it's very hard to be an Active Player and especially a super fantastic one. But I have fun and it's like a huge social thing that spurs it on. No idea how I'll behave when I retire but it's highly possible I'll lean way more towards SAFETY.

OK - wanted to get something out - and that maybe gives a glimpse of one belief and value
 
An old saying comes to mind;

"it is better to have Loved and Lost, then never to have Loved at all".

Blessed are those who give there Love so freely and without reservation or forethought. Even though, in their heart of hearts, they know that the man upstairs has the last word and the loss of such friends would be a cross and thorny crown to bare well after.

Such is a person like Steady ! A man who crosses all boundries by sharing the words which flow from his heart ! Bless you my big brother, your message was more timely then I can say !

OK - Sugarpie - let's move on to another Belief and Value

and that's how we feel about ourself and how we feel when others make expressions like this.

Oooeee, Steady, have you got that wrong or what? Ever heard of a Fearless Moral Inventory? I have, and the list was looong!

Well this RESPONSE goes 'Double' if not 'Triple' for me.

It's nice to hear some reinforcing words of love and admiration and they are somewhat comforting and much appreciated. But Squale knows only the 'Love, Respect, and Admiration' of his 'older brother'. Whereas my comment to Alevie was somewhat similar.

I usually get so awkward when someone says something like this - that I don't know how to respond. So when Alevie gave this response I thought it was perfect.

So that's how I am too - I know I have many flaws and quirks and I will always have them; but I'm trying to move in a better direction and build on the good.

I had a Very HARD TIME with developing BONDS - because I learned in childhood they are too destructive. Unfortunately some would come across as the most wonderful friends imaginable and for someone like me 'Who was wired to fully Believe and Trust' this turned out to be the most heartbreaking and spiritually crushing experience when it turned out to be a 'Set Up' and what they wanted all along was to hurt me; to kind of distroy me. So I opened myself as full as possible and in turn got 'crushed' to the highest extent.

Eventually I learned to keep the Bonds from developing; to put on the appearance of being open to friendship and fully enjoying it but in reality I only let it go so far - so when the 'destruction' came I could say and believe - NO PROBLEM - you were never a 'real friend' because a real friend is a friend for life.

Then came ELLA and everything changed.

Will elaborate later but want to get this out before the computer times out.
 
'our beliefs and values' are the most fundamental aspects of our life. As LIFE itself is a process so to are our beliefs and values.
One of the most fundamental aspects that bridge your beliefs and values to mine is by the very nature by which you have been wired to build the huge walls around your heart and life to sheild yourself from further damage. This is such a remarkeable core feature of being a woman. Well for me this was largely a forced aspect of childhood and thereby a feature that helps me be more in touch with you. I share this because deep down I believe you and I both had the deepest belief that ‘our life’ was sacred, priceless, and uniquely special. As we bear with the huge assults and disappointments life throws at us – we learn the comforts these walls provide. But these walls also are hugely destructive as well as protective – as they can prevent us from the ultimate love, joy, happiness, and completion we were meant to find.

This would bring me to the largest and most central Belief by far and that is God. Born and raised in a Christian family I was grounded in the Belief that Jesus was the purest of the pure, and that LIFE and LOVE had their utimate grounding in Him. To live in God and grow in His Love was the ultimate purpose of our existence. As a child I had no problem ‘believing this’ and I grew up with the fullest confidence that God was over everything and no matter how great any person could be (such as my parents or Grandmother) – no one came close to Jesus.

Unfortunately my general understanding was more grouded in SIN – the bad things that fill our minds and actiions and I pretty much saw God (the Father) as the Mean Old Man with the frown always looking and ready to dish out punishment. So when I came to know Jesus on a deeply personal level in highschool I thought the reason why the experience of ‘Being Bonded and brought into Union with GOD was such a HUGE EXPERIENCE – is because I was so totally and completely saturated in sin. When I came to really know Jesus on a deeply personal level it was by far the most Amazing experience of my entire life. Finding Jesus was such a powerful experience – although the sin itself was plentiful and I probably did have more than my share; it was way more the Walls that set me apart and that is why I had ‘The Lightening Bolt’ huge transformation. For in finding Jesus on a deeply personal level – my entire life changed.

Only in the past few days have I come to realize it was not so much ‘the Sin’ in my life but the hundreds and thousands of walls (and disconnects) I’d built up throughout the years. When I wholly gave every little aspect of my existence over to Him – every Wall and disconect VANISHED and I found Completeness in the most wonderful and fullest extent possible. This is when I came to know Life and Love as never before and this became the most central aspect by which all my ‘belefs and values’ were subsequently grounded.

Sorry if this is hard to read - but I'm having to write super fast as time allows.
 
Hopefully I’m beginning to see LIFE on a deeper level and one that encompasses a higher quality and value.

Because of I have rapidly achieved various goals I’ve somehow had the assumption I have an accurate picture of ‘reality’. In other words because I accomplish tasks and goals so quickly it leads me to think I’m able to piece together the various aspects of reality SWIFTLY and ACCURATELY. This may be true when it comes to playing guitar, mastering karate, discovering the brain, and accomplishing Missions but LIFE and GOD are way beyond these things and when we grow up with overwhelmingly distorted views – then it’s easy to miss what is true. After all it is a pretty screwed up world.

I believe the concept of God (at least in the general religious since) is largely grounded in seeking ‘perfection’ because somehow religion has evolved into a quest to do right and not do wrong. Thus ‘good Christians’ are those that avoid – or markedly limit – activities that are considered questionable, wrong, bad or ‘sinful’. The avoidance of wrong – or sinful – deeds (or activities) largely substantiates our ‘rightful living’ and somehow makes us think we’re in good standing. It would appear that other religions have a similar mentality.

I now believe God and Religion were wholly meant to be centered in Relationships. So when you talk about beliefs and values then it has to start with the ‘bigger picture’. If we transfer the Love of God as demonstrated through Jesus, Paul, Mother Teresa and anyone else who seemed to actively demonstrate ‘God’s Love and Power’ it is not so much their avoidance of wrong deeds that set them apart IT IS THEIR RELATIONSHIPS and the way they regarded one another.

I tell you all this because more and more it is my RELATIONSHIPS that mostly defines my Spiritual Life and my happiness in general. This is where Ella, my dog enters the picture. From her I leaned to ‘Bond’ like never before and this may have opened the door to yet even greater bonds. When you first said something about ‘the thrill of finding MEN who seemed to have their heads on right – or me ‘being a gem’ – it was at a time when I had found tremendous satisfaction by the bonds I found with various people. I also have had a particular fondness for women in general and that’s why I reacted the way I did. So you honestly ‘shook me to the core’ and made me step back and really do a major inner inventory.

But more and more – I realize that the RELATIONSHIP that brought me the most fulfillment and the greatest satisfaction has already been found and in our short time here on Earth THIS IS WHAT I WILL HOLD ON TO AND HOPE FOR OVER THE YEARS TO COME. So yes – it’s cool – we can be friends and I have no problem with you being a woman – cause ‘friends are friends’ and I can never get enough. Sorry it’s taken so long to get to this point but I guess it took the right one to make it happen and for that I THANK YOU FROM THE DEPTHS OF MY HEART.
 
Alright time to reflect on some findings I consider pretty huge.

The Native American Band I've been researching are:

1. Grounded in Music - Now nothing could be cooler than that to me and their music and songs were pretty much part of everything,.

2. They were like the Ultimate in GREEN MENTALITY - If they took some bark off the Birch tree to make something they left an offering to the tree in return. They had a genuine gratitude for whatever the Earth provided and showed this in basically everything.

3. Their 'Beliefs - and their God' has tremendous substance which verifies their grounding is Legitimate and wholly dependable. They had someone who could give them a name that signified huge power and importance. Something was made to symbolize the 'dream' by which this name was given. They carried this throughout the years and it worked to provide numerous miricles.

They were sent out to 'get a vision' as they're becoming adults and many times during this vision they were taken to both the past and the future. In my view only God could make that happen and they have numerous accounts where they describe things they never could have seen - but much later over the years they see it (like a framed house).

They had 'Medicine Men' that went through a lot of training and tests to go up the ranks. Here I should stress that they recognized the gifts individuals had and honed them very well. Anyway you read account after account of kids and others becoming sick and close to death and they 'do something' which seems deeply grounded in a very strong Belief System - and are cured fairly soon.

I'm also amazed at how some are able to alter the weather, a storm, or make thunder out of nowhere.

Women were highly regarded - and it was good; Children were also huge in terms of priority among the whole community.

No idea why they had it out for the Suiox Tribe - and that part is not good at all. It makes me wonder if that's not part of nature and something that can't be avoided.

I know growing up in an all white neighborhood - the blacks seemed different in a very weird way; I mean as a kid you wonder what they're like: in terms of how they think, live, behave... and it's scarey to get close. But I could say this for anyone else that looked different in some manner.

As an adult - and having known people from all parts of the world it's now very easy for me to see 'the similarities' FAR OUTWEIGH the differences. But if we grew up thinking 'This group' was BAD and they grew up thinking the same thing about us THEN there is probably no way to stop the cycle; from one generation to the next.

So I guess the BIG QUESTION IS: How do we, who are free of these huge divisions and conflicts Help to break the cycles - so that others can let the similarities overcome the differences.
 
Had an MRI of the neck and head along with an EEG earlier today.

Both stated the Data was excellent - everything went as good as the imaging and electrical rhythms could be accomplished.

Will PM you if anything remarkable.
 
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