Steadygain
TSP Elite
Steady
Everytime I read your posts, I feel cheated. Like I have somehow missed out. You're the most generous, kindest person I have ever had the priviledge of meeting and I am jealous of everyone else that has known you both personally and as a member of this MB.I hope that someday you can call me FRIEND.
Please don't be jealous - you have absolutely nothing to be jealous about. Also that when you came when you did 'guarantees' you won't be cheated.
1. At the very top - was someone who told me things so deeply sacred and wonderful that nothing I have ever known has even come close. She told me something I had always believed deep down and had wondered over the years when that TRUTH would be known.
When it finally was made known -- I was not only her Sparkling Friend - but I was the rarest and most precious GEM on the entire MB. The most beautiful -- and the most deeply sacred part is that she told me what an amazing influence I had on others and in fact the person most centrally in my life was the brightest and most beautiful GEM next to me.
So that largely became my LIFE - it was a religion that went above all others because I knew where my 'Character' came from and all the more I wanted to make it known as fully as possible. She told me of a GEM who had deep pain and sorrow - and my His Grace and wonderful interactions somehow I was able to open my life to this GEM and give whatever I could.
I know this has to sound crazy but I promise from the deepest depths that everything I'm telling you is TRUE. She is the only one that had the ability to confirm if my influence was helpful - if in some manner whatever I did and however I strove to make a difference -- if it did any good. At the very end she told me that GEM was totally transformed from a Pearl to a blazing GEM similar to the Opal she first discovered with me.
No one has gone to greater lengths to destroy whatever 'good' I may have done. No one could deny me more - or use me more in destructive ways.
Yet because of who she is -- and what she deeply represents -- there was no one I would have been more willing to give my life for; even to the point of hoping GOD would take my life and use it totally on her behalf.
I have a hard time believing a friend like you can be REAL in light of this.
Please don't reply - I have a little more to add
I am all too familiar with the chaos and utter damage that another woman with self interests and a lack of moral values can bring into a relationship. I can assure you I am not that woman! I know who you speak of and if you think she is that wonderful, than I trust your judgement and accept her completely as being a part of you. I would welcome her friendship and look forward to getting to know her. I can't say that I have completely unselfish reasons for wanting to be friends though. I've never had REAL and TRUE friends and I need that in my life more then anything else. There is a lot about me that I would like to share with the both of you and I look forward to that day.
