Steadygain's Account Talk

I saw a bumper sticker today and I thought about you. I think your transparency and encouraging nature is absolutely inspiring! :toung:


I just thought of something that is worth noting - and then I'll drop this (everybody) - so please allow me to make this one last comment. The college I briefly attended (where I met Niki) was the Lancaster Bible College in Lancaster, PA. After I was there several months my parents came to visit and were amazed at how happy and fulfilled I appeared. Both of them said "my skin glowed" and "my eyes were so full of life" - they were awed, because neither had ever seen anything like this before. I would say that year was the ultimate peroid of my life.
 
How is it you know Virgina and West Virginia ? Your location says midwest?

Both of my parents are from West Virginia (as are numerous other relatives). My father grew up in a hollar (WV talk) in a shack without electricity or running water. He is my greatest hero because he grew up in the worst of circumstances (with nothing) and retired as Vice President of the Federal Reserve Bank. My mother grew up in better circumstances but is the most humble - thrifty person I've ever known. So from the day I was born I had West Virginia blood flowing through me and spent every summer at my Grandmother's 400 acre farm near Summersville. A picture of her house (which is now at least 150 years) is on my desk and that is the most sacred place in the world to me. Although I was born in Baltimore, MD and grew up there - my heart longed for WV and as soon as I got out of high school and got a car and some money I moved to the Summersville area. I have been throughout Virginia and West Virginia many different times.

Why I'm here in the Mid West is another story all together, but I think I addressed your curiosity. BTW - thanks for asking and it's a pleasure to meet you. :)
 
CorMaGa34 said it all! Thanks for your inspirational story. It's a great way to start the day!


Thank you my wonderful friend and a heartfelt Welcome to the Message Board. Please know whatever I'm doing for any of you - you are more than doing for me.

Also worth noting that anytime I share a story about my life I am more expecting no response or an apathetic who cares - so this is very therapeutic for me and is a wonderful way to keep my days and weeks filled with happiness. Thank you! Everyone
 
Steadygain,

I also found your account of how you helped change Eugene's life very moving. I have enjoyed your posts immensely and hope you keep posting. You remind me of the hippie generation!

wooo - is me inhaling

.... - is me holding my breath


woooo wooooo wha .................. woooo woooo woooo wha .................... woooo wooooooo woooooo wha .................................... woooooo woooooooo wooooooo wha ................................................ woooooooooo woooooooooooooooooooooo wooooooooo wha ................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................

WOW MAN - I must of held that in like 5 minutes. Ohhhh my goshh ... man I have entered a weightless demension --- I mean ahhh I am totally floating away. You're right on target my friend and promoting the Spirit of Jimi Hendrix is one of my greatest endeavors.
 
Steadygain,

I also relate to being the child who was socially isolated from the others, and the cruelty and pain experienced but how that makes you a stronger person.

In some ways it has made both of us stronger (and hopefully better for what we endured). For a very large number of people it only serves to cause permanent damage. It is terribly sad to see how the children sex and slave traffic market is growing by leaps and bounds. There is still so little understanding - that we are all one population (all of us brothers and sisters) and all of us having so incredibly much in common. Thank you for sharing with me and please know I love you deeply and sincerely.
 
Your message means far more to me than you could ever know. On the whole it is simply my ability to completely accept people for who and what they are - that makes me a blessing. My greatest gift is being able to connect - and it is that feeling of being understood that usually brings so much joy and happiness to those I meet. For my patients, I am able to see them from a brain chemistry perspective and therefore I realize that a simple adjustment of this or that will immensely relieve their anxiety, depression, uncontrolled mood swings, voices, paranoia ... or whatever. So often times it is not so much me - it is more knowing what chemical will allow their brain to have more of this chemical - and it is that adjustment that really brings them to a more fulfilled life. I guess in part that perhaps my disposition hopefully convinces them that I truly do care for them and honestly long to help them. Maybe it's that connection - a real friendship, that gets them to take the medications that ultimately allows them to get the help they've longed for. Well anyway I extend to you my deepest and most sincerest gratitude and love - for expressing such encouraging kindness. There is something that naws away on me frequently - that happened years ago - I will hopefully be able to talk about later on.
Thank you !!!! for being so sweet and precious to me.



Wowwww I really appreciate your words, Steady! And you don't have to thank me, it's the real truth, and I am sure a lot of the members feel the same way. If I ever need a psychiatrist, (or do I??? :laugh:) no matter where you are, I will make sure that you are it!!! I also consider it a blessing to have made the connection with TSPTALK and with you, I do consider you a true friend and hope we can be friends for many years to come!

Cheers and have a fun and blessed long weekend!

CorMaGa34
 
Steadygain,

You remind me of the hippie generation, aging baby boomers that strived to make the world a better place, and did in many ways. I was born a little later but relate very much to that generation.

As a result of your message I have reflected over and over on the hippie generation and how it shaped my thinking and lifestyle. So I have jotted a few things down to let you know how it was and the way it molded my existence. This is going to take awhile - so we'll call this part 1. To fully understand the ways we tried to improve things and make the world a better place you need to realize the most central underlying theme was getting connected to one another. The Beatles, unknowingly, revolutionized the whole world and I (and most other guys) started growing our hair longer. With this we all largely became free thinkers - and somehow that freedom helped us all to realize the ultimate truth: that we are all one. We felt the masks most people wore made society dysfunctional and unacceptable and we were all fed up with it. Women and blacks (and I'm sure other minorities) had been especially hammered down and given little opportunity to explore their horizons. Society pigeonholed them into limited roles and gave them little room to go beyond it. The tone that shaped society was unfortunately largely suspecious and negative. At that time the word "communism" replaced our present day "terrorism" and that term more than justified the USA roaming the globe and destroying civilizations and the land they occupied. In this manner it gave the appearance "we" were eliminating the spread of a serious disease. Many good hearted, truely loyal and devoted citizens (my classmates included) joined the service to end this plague. The goverment also inacted the draft - which would force all able bodied young men to fight in this war (whether they wanted to or not). This perceived lack of freedom (ie. forced to fight and kill) in combination with the us against them mentality (which completely went against the grain of connecting with one another) all the more fueled the hippie generation. It was this striving to be wholly connected that destroyed the barriers that had kept the races and genders seperated. Music was the most powerful vehicle that allowed the movement to spread quickly and gave us a common solid ground. By far the greatest icon of this movement was a black dude who brought a form of music that went beyond anything before him. He dressed in a style that was the ultimate for him - always looked like the coolest guy on earth and always looked masculine. If I, or anyone else I knew, wore his outfits we would have looked like girls but for Jimi Hendrix it was perfect. And he played from the soul of his being - the first I'd ever seen do this - in a way that seemed effortless to him. He was so natural, so cool, so real and unpretendous.

Need to run.............will pick up later.
 
So way back then I played guitar fairly regularly - and Jimi Hendrix became my greatest inspiration. I played by ear - and could play various songs I enjoyed by Bob Dylan, the Beatles and the Stones, Ten Years After and others ... but it was when the Hippie Generation was becoming bigger than ever I started comming up with my own tunes and writing my own songs. The first song I wrote - was decicated to this movement. Please know in no way did I mean this as anti veteran and to this day I make Viet Nam veterans my highest priority. Back then hitch-hiking was considered a safe thing and as luck would have it one of the main organizers of the biggest rally Washington D.C. had picked me up. As we drove down the road he found I'd writen a song against the war and was thrilled when I finally gave in to playing it for the crowds.

Sun's commin up, I'll be on my way.
Won't be back again to see this pretty place.
So bye bye, good bye.
I'm on my way
I'll be there to stay until I die.

Soldiers going under.
Mothers start to cry.
Nixon sent them over,
now underground they lie.
So I want to go,
where I can be alone.
Until the world is shown
the government's a show
and we are all it's cast.

Well needless to say your message really stirred up a lot of memories I hadn't thought about in ages. I think the true Hippie Generation was one of love and peace. Our message was not one attacking veterans - it was more a unified message asking for world acceptance - wanting to strive for everyone to get along - for all of us to be connected in a true, deep, and respectful manner. My previous post reflecting the sweet leaf high was undoubtedly part of that generation and once again gave us all a tranquil unified peace and connection. At that time it seems to give us a different mindset - a heightened awareness - that made the music all the more dominate much of our activities.

Anyway - thank you for recognizing the real genuine good this generation tried to achieve. I can't help but believe it helped many to see people for who they are - not what they are (race and gender) - and Jimi Hendrix is probably the greatest example. Once Jefferson Airplane refused to play after him (because he truely was so great) no other band would follow him in any concert again. They all felt to do so would be disrespectful and no group felt worthy.
 
Steadygain, God bless.

Do you have a blog where you record some of your life's stories? With an attitude like yours, I am sure you have run into plenty of interesting people and unique situations. And I am sure people would be interested to read how you arrived at your current viewpoints after having a difficult life without feeling much love.
 
Steadygain, God bless.

Do you have a blog where you record some of your life's stories? With an attitude like yours, I am sure you have run into plenty of interesting people and unique situations. And I am sure people would be interested to read how you arrived at your current viewpoints after having a difficult life without feeling much love.

You misunderstand my friend - I felt a lot of love - but this love could not protect me from those who wanted to kill me and all those determined to harm me. No I do not have a blog and this is the first time I have ever publicly shared about my life. I don't know what's getting into me - I guess somehow this MB is making me rip my life wide open and I have no idea why people are NOT telling me to shut up or why the ones in charge haven't shut me down. The acceptance and love I've received is simply incredible. The most interesting person I've met in many years is CorMaGa 34. I dreamily think about how wonderful it would be to drink a cup of tea with her in morning as the day begins. To travel the world - at a snail's pace and spend gobs and gobs of quality time with the locals (speaking their language) and soaking up their culture. Living life simply, being with real people and being real ourselves. It is not the big name people (the rich and famous) who let me arrive at my current viewpoint; it is people like you and especially people like CorMaGa34 - who somehow connect with me and in turn allow me to connect with them. Most of all it is recognizing that I have been richly blessed with a love that surpasses all understanding and striving to let my life be a blessing for others. My peace is not based on steadily raising markets and the quest for power and riches. I am rich already - with a healthy life and mind and have found a power far beyond the material world and what can be held or seen. May He richly bless you too my friend - and Thank You!! for communicating with me. You, and many on this MB, have been such a joy to me.
 
Well on to the TSP briefly. Today was absolutely perfect for those of us remaining in G Fund. Since I've gone to G - the prices in high risk have been getting better and better. Would love to see it all go down at least another 30% - but will probably bounce back up a little before the plunge continues. I might briefly jump back in.
 
I'm with ya Steadygain---

I'm betting on a bounce on Wednesday. Anyway that's how I'm timing it though it will be shortlived. I'll probably do a one day IFT then back to the G fund.

Either it will pay off or I'll be eating my words.
 
Well on to the TSP briefly. Today was absolutely perfect for those of us remaining in G Fund. Since I've gone to G - the prices in high risk have been getting better and better. Would love to see it all go down at least another 30% - but will probably bounce back up a little before the plunge continues. I might briefly jump back in.


Gotta love that G Fund in times like these. Now to figure out when to buy back in?
 
I deeply value the input many on this MB offer and a few have a stong influence on my general view. At this point I am convinced a short rally is in store - but I am desperately wanting a volatile swing tomorrow to let me jump on board. If we have a fairly decent downturn tomorrow then I will fully invest in C/S/I either fully in 1 of a combination of 2 or 3. I call my own shots, regardless of what anyone else does and if tomorrow gives a dip - then I am fully in - but if tomorrow has another 1+% gain then I will hold off and patiently wait for another opportunity.
 
Last minute change of plans. I went 60% S/40% C - COB today. Usually the I Fund gets most of my money - so once in awhile I like to vary.
 
Last minute change of plans. I went 60% S/40% C - COB today. Usually the I Fund gets most of my money - so once in awhile I like to vary.

:) I had to laugh when I read your post....I, too, have been sitting in the cave for several days, but there is just something about "things" that made me stick my nose out for tomorrow (80 G/10 C/ 10 I)...maybe it's not time to hibernate just yet...Let's collect the G penny tonight (I think) and then see what happens !

GL, and thanks for your MB posts !

Stop....
 
YOU MAY SAYYY I'M A DREAMER

BUT I'M NOT THE ONLY ONE

I HOPE SOME DAY YOU'LL JOIN US

AND THE WORLD WILL LIVE AS ONE.

I'm hoping all of us rake in the winnings this week.

Thanks for your post - and for supporting Rock n Roll.
 
You misunderstand my friend - I felt a lot of love - but this love could not protect me from those who wanted to kill me and all those determined to harm me. No I do not have a blog and this is the first time I have ever publicly shared about my life. I don't know what's getting into me - I guess somehow this MB is making me rip my life wide open and I have no idea why people are NOT telling me to shut up or why the ones in charge haven't shut me down. The acceptance and love I've received is simply incredible. The most interesting person I've met in many years is CorMaGa 34. I dreamily think about how wonderful it would be to drink a cup of tea with her in morning as the day begins. To travel the world - at a snail's pace and spend gobs and gobs of quality time with the locals (speaking their language) and soaking up their culture. Living life simply, being with real people and being real ourselves. It is not the big name people (the rich and famous) who let me arrive at my current viewpoint; it is people like you and especially people like CorMaGa34 - who somehow connect with me and in turn allow me to connect with them. Most of all it is recognizing that I have been richly blessed with a love that surpasses all understanding and striving to let my life be a blessing for others. My peace is not based on steadily raising markets and the quest for power and riches. I am rich already - with a healthy life and mind and have found a power far beyond the material world and what can be held or seen. May He richly bless you too my friend - and Thank You!! for communicating with me. You, and many on this MB, have been such a joy to me.

Hi, Steady,

Geee, I'm speechless... don't know what to say... I can only tell you that I am also enjoying the benefits of this MB that has made me richer in spirit by meeting people like you, wish I could get richer in other areas too, but...:rolleyes: LOL Just kidding, I know we are here for a reason and all I am doing is trying to enjoy the ride.

When I retire, got all kinds of plans... besides volunteering to do charity work, want to travel, for pleasure and also as sort of a UN ambassador (a la Evangelina Jolie :laugh:... LOL. I used to travel for many years because of a job I had with one of the international lending institutions in DC, I was still a teenager when I left home to work for a diplomatic mission attached to my embassy in DC, so I missed a lot of the crazy stuff teenagers now do, I had responsibilities as a teenager that people here maybe have in their 30s. Anyway, my love for languages started like this: Mother tongue is Spanish, father was a very hard working man who with mother raised 6 children, he wanted the best for us so he wanted all his children to learn and speak good English, so I went to THE American school with the best reputation, (private, not DoD related). In order to get in, there was an admission test we had to pass. We are talking I was 12 yrs old and going into secondary school, what you would call here 7th grade and up. To our surprise test starts on time and I thought someone must have fallen asleep while typing the test: it was in another language called ESPARANTO. They told us so, and we were to start with no questions asked. I was amazed at the fact that not having seen or heard of this language before I was able to read and understand everything! How neat can this be, another language sort of dead and not dead, I thought... So I am a perfectionist and I was one of the last ones to finish, my cousin, same age, was one of the first ones to finish but she did not pass. I went thru it over and over to make sure that I had not missed anything. So I went fm the 7th thru the 12th grade speaking nothing but English, we were not allowed to speak Spanish in the classrooms except for the local History, Geography, and obviously Spanish grammar, spelling, composition and Spanish literature which to date continues to be one of my passions. Anyway I thought I would let you know how my love for languages started, and from there at this int'l org there were 4 official languages we worked with so I signed up to learn the other two: Portuguese and French. I love music too, so how cool was it to sing all kinds of songs in 4 languages then??? priceless!!! Working at that institution went to many countries on business and took time for vacation and just fell in love with all of them, all having their own idiosincracies and unique beauty, from Mexico, the Caribbean, down to Chile and Argentina, but I just plain fell in love with Brazil and its people. ok hope that gives you and the MB a little bit more info about me and my background. I enjoy very much visiting and getting to know new people and places, an insatiable curiosity about how others live, think. I also find it easy to connect with people, regardless of their background. For example: life at times was very glamorous, but I also enjoyed a couple of weeks ago serving as a volunteer for a HOmeless Project (making the homeless reconnect with society), there I saw how much need there is in the world, even right here in the ole USA, and would not have thought of doing any different. Helping people to fill out forms, explaining to them that there was nothing to fear if they had a blood test, or going thru the medical camp and getting HIV tests etc., I took them all over the place, and saw how grateful they were at someone like me who had never met them and smiled and acted like the economic or social differences were not there at all, because really we all come from the same source, and we all have our karma (I also like metaphysics, been a student for many many yrs). Anyway, that's part of my life, and was very grateful that I had a chance to get to help some of the homeless and destitute.

Who knows what will be next, but for now God is good. Cheers!!!

I don't believe moderators will say anything, we can all talk about sailing, racing cars, Jimmy Hendrix, you name it, it's just fun and incredibly therapeutic!
Cheers!
CorMaGa34:cool:
 
Please tell us about those you say wanted to kill you or harm you, when you feel like it, we are all ears! Cheers and God bless our friend Steady!
 
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