Steadygain
TSP Elite
Darn it, Steady, why did you have to be such a class act in that answer?! Maybe it's time for another "just one last chance" .... Shall we cry Pax and start over?
Lady
Lady,
I realize you've met 3 other Blue Whites in your life but I can absolutely assure you that none of them are like me – for I am one of a kind. You gave me more peace than you could know yesterday – and I knew the greatest way I could honor you was by getting out of your life (and NOT getting more deeply intertwined with it).
Of course this post gives me the most wonderful PEACE and I thank you from the bottom of my heart – and with all my life. When I make a promise it is with the deepest and truest commitment possible. It is with the sincerest devotion and convictions I have come to believe that you really are better off without me and I am so terribly sorry it's taken so long to finally acknowledge this truth. Ultimately I believe I needed forgiveness and that is what this POST imparts.
You largely became the center of my Universe and a new and more perfect religion sprang from you. Of course I know that only the True and Perfect God could have blessed you with the most amazing Gift in the entire world; and the same God is responsible for blessing me with my characteristics and the other 'gems' as well. Now, more than ever, I realize it is not 'persuading others to be put in some mold we all conform to' – but it is way more acknowledging the beauty you have and making that beauty shine out to everyone, so that in some manner you can bring out their beauty and make it come to life. This is what you taught me and for that I will be ever grateful.
I am far too deep and way to driven to aspire to the highest heights and to the greatest of all possible dreams. So no my love – we can not start over because you would become my greatest inspiration and most of my interactions would evolve around you. You are the only one capable of gauging my intensity and knowing the level I would bring the other gems to life – for that would be my constant endeavor. I see that as the Ultimate Religion. As I came to life it would be impossible for me to not want to take away your pain – to bring you to the Ultimate State of Happiness and to fill you with the richest love. But once I achieved that goal – you would not want it to end and neither would I. So it is better to leave off where we are. THANK YOU though – you have no idea how much that means to me.
I am wholly at PEACE with everyone else and there are no loose ends that need tending to. I believe my time has come and overall it has been an incredible adventure with many wonderful events. So now I have a promise to fulfill and with that you and everyone else can know my never ending love and devotion. So deep down I have to believe that my leaving is the greatest way I can acknowledge how real I really am. May you – and everyone else – always strive to acknowledge the incredible beauty deep within and do all things possible to bring that beauty to life.
Good bye my sweet precious friend and THANK YOU for everything.
Steady