I haven't read Steadygain's thread in a month and now I'm so lost..
I've made a lot of huge mistakes by trying to force the MB at large to share in and accept something that is far too 'personal' - was far too blown away with my Subjective Experience to realize how bizarre it would make the Objective Experiences of others.
Unfortunately I've been stretching my transition - on others and only NOW realize that no one else can be 'attached' - so everyone was LOST.
It's all a huge transition YET I'm very grateful for how everything is happening. I promise I really am.
I didn't know what I needed until it happened, which was this morning.
It's all a learning process and moving with the flow and finding what needs to be. Sometimes it takes awhile to honestly understand when you're so caught up in your own perspective.
So everything is working out Great and it just took me awhile to recognize some of the most essential truths:
1. Misunderstandings are unavoidable and in many situations it's better to let them die than try to make them right. That's probably been my biggest problem.
2. The inward rewards and the most marvelous life changing experiences -- no matter how Promising and full of HOPE -- may be totally rejected by others. From a subjective point of view you can't help but feel the more you make it known is all the more others will share in the beauty. From an objective point of view -- if it's viewed in a negative manner the sharing only makes it worse.
3. The Greatest and most far reaching TRANSITIONS are never easy. In many ways this has been very difficult. You don't know how to behave and what to express because the changes are so huge. To a large degree you're hoping for 'confirmation' but in the end you find that can never be found anywhere but deep within. In this situation no one could possibly give that confirmation beyond the ONE who has brought it all into being.
We can only TRUST that GOD has moved in the ways that GOD alone can do. If we are filled with HIS Peace then what more do we need? If in fact HIS Love has brought us Fulfillment and filled us with Hope and the Promise of greater things to come then there is nothing to compare to that.
Somehow because it happens here (on this Site) I felt obligated to shout it from the rooftops and in my excitement I somehow thought whatever I was feeling would be felt by others. This 'Mindset' is hard to avoid when it's all you know -- and the greater bulk of what you're living and experiencing is directly related to this Site.
I do appologize to every Member or visitor and in retrospect I do understand how 'wrong' it was to push my life on you.
That perhaps would be the greatest lesson I came to find in how a Social Network like this should be. It works BEST with an element of 'sharing' but sharing too much is counterproductive.