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FIRST WARNING: My father had a business trip in the area where Jean lived and thought he'd visit her - so they could get to know each other - while he was there. He found she was admitted to a psychiatric ward and went to visit. He was told she would not see anyone for any reason - and she would be in at least a week. So later when he saw me face to face he tried to warn me that Mental Illness is usually a deep rooted thing - and did not want me to go through heartaches trying to help her. Well I thought totally the opposite - I loved everything about her - and nothing could possibly alter my destiny. So I asked Jean about this and she told me every year she gets to a point where she needs to get away from everything and just be able to in essesence shut down - and she admits herself to the psych ward for this purpose. Well that made perfect sense to me - so I figured hey "That's cool - no problem" and never thought another thing about it.

She is a nurse (an LPN) and they can go anywhere because nurses are in such demand. So after Germany the Army sends me to a Base in Alabama -for Rest and Relaxation- to help me chill out. Jean has me find an apartment near by for her and shortly thereafter is an easy walk from the Base.

Finally - a patient
 
Birchtree said:
My "Dear John" helped save my life. I got so depressed I no longer had any fear.
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Praise God - Birch - I'm glad it did. I loss my fear in a different way and in fact I strived to die in honor (because short of death) there was absolutely no way possible I would fail to complete the Mission.
 
So the next thing Jean is moving in and I go over to visit. We may have fooled around a little prior to this (I WAS LIKE MY DAUGHTERS IN A LOVING - KIND - CARING - STRONG FAITH - SORT OF WAY BUT AS FAR AS BEING PURE GOES - I WAS TOTALLY DIFFERENT) well in a big way that keeps them (my daughters) pure sexually. For me (my wiring is) - to whatever extent the energy and love of your relationship carries you - NEVER DO ANYTHING THAT WOULD DAMPEN IT IN ANYWAY. But when I got the apartment I sincerely had no intention of staying there with her. When Jean asked if I'd stay overnight with her (on my first visit) - what I just said in bold letters carried through and Jean and I went to the highest level imaginable.

OTHER WARNINGS: I started discovering thought patterns that were hard to understand. One day when I open the door she is sitting in the kitchen crying - eyes bloodshot - tears streaming down - and I'm like WOW, WHAT'S GOING ON??? She told me she didn't think I would ever come back. Now that hit me like a bucket of nails - because we had never had any kind of argument or conflict - and I'm thinkn' ARE YOU KIDDING ME?? So in the most loving gentle spirit I asssured her that I couldn't wait to get off and spend time with her. And I saw these moments as simple misunderstandings "as insecurities" that could be resolved. But that was not the case - and they recurred in various ways - but the bottom line is her thought patterns were often stange (if not abnormal). But often she was wonderful and I strived all the harder.

Another issue she found very difficult was my lack of knowing the body on a cellular (medical level) - and when she would tell me almost anything about a patient I would always try to listen intently but whenever she asked "Do you know what the pancreas is or what is does? or Do you know how many valves are in the heart?? and other questions like that - I had to tell her I have no clue. So she would feel like there is no way for us to communicate. I told her that I will go in the Medical Field - so I can know the body on a cellular level and THAT WAS THE MAIN FACTOR THAT LED ME TO BE WHAT I AM TODAY. She thought I would not be able to do it - just because I said I could. She went on to stress it is a very complicated field and it took everything she had to get her LPN degree - and now I'm thinking that I can go beyond that mainly so I can communicate with her on a level I could not do otherwise.
 
Jean already had her home (trailor) paid off in PA - and had been working in (her field of work for years) don't want to say too much and would never do anything to break her trust - even though the last time I saw her was while I was still in the Army. So to some degree I think a lot of the problems were lacking the security she had grown accostumed to (her home, job, and environment) - and now having a hard time trying to fit in a whole new world (a new hospital - a new environment - no friends ... but equal to all that is seeing someone she'd give her whole life to having to deal with things that had no explanation - and the belief she would be far better off leaving while I still loved her and respected her than stay and lose all that. The reasons in their entirity will remain a mystery but one day when I went to see her she was gone. But yet my goal was already set - and I would not fail in that endeavor.

Almost immediately after I left the Army I went to college and learned the body - from head to toe - on a cellular level. If anyone would talk about anything concerning an organ system I would know everything they are describing and more. But no organ compares to the Brain - and no field is more complicated AND MORE REWARDING than Psychiatry - and it has all worked out. In the end I would understand Jean on a level I could never have understood back then; but in the long run I understood her on the level of a lifelong committed friend and lover - a constant companion - and that was way more important than as a Mental Health Professional who understands her specific mental condition.
 
In the end - time will tell who is on the right track for the TSP investments. In no way does today change my outlook and my plan to remain in S Fund. The overall dynamics show the bulk are ready to buy and push the Markets to new highs. The smart money only has a few weeks to dress up their portfolios - and as Birchtree noted earlier they will be looking for solid longstanding companies - which will drive all the Markets higher. So the bottom line is - many of us feel we are Market Gurus and are somehow gifted in acquiring the impressive returns we've obtained - and in that sense I am part of that mentality - but no one can possibly know for sure until it's all over.
 
Okay - time for a good dose of Mental Visualization. I am the Market King and my Charcol Grill controls the Markets. This morning I am getting an early start. My steaks represent C, S, and I. Right now the coals are glowing red - HOT - and I just threw the steaks on. Now I want these medium to medium well - so the heat is going to sizzle all the way through. I'm using some Hickory wood - so you can be sure I'll throw the top on and smoke them good. But that is my mood for today and that is the way the Market King does it. If you get lost in the moment - then it appears the world is comming to an end - everything is down the drain - all hell is breaking loose - and so on and so forth. Now is the time for a reality check - grilling the steaks only lasts so long and when it's over the best of times will always follow. So today is not the beginning of the end - it is simply getting the steaks just right.
 
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Wow! Thanks man. That's a concert many talked about for years and years. For those who missed the Festival it was the most remarkable event in the history of music. Jimi started playing faster and faster - spured on by the audience - smoke began to rise from the neck of the guitar and everyone was totally shocked that anyone would be capable of burning the guitar by the rapid friction of fingers. Some thought is was a trick - and that was very insulting to Jimi - and so he stopped for a moment and told the crowd "This is no trick - I've got the fastest fingers to ever touch a guitar". Then he repeated the process and once again smoke began to rise. This time the audience went wild and spured him further than ever. Now Jimi went crazy and began using the other hand to stretch the strings and other stuff and did it so fast that the body of the guitar first started smoking - then it caught on fire. He put so much heat on that guitar it blazed like a bonfire and so he took the opportuity to set it down and make a sacrifice to the audience. There was no lighter fluid and there was never a match lit - all this was the sheer force of Jimi's lightening speed fingers and hands. The Fire Department and concert managers would never let it happen again - but if he wanted to Jimi could smoke any guitar ever made and set it on fire.
 
DennisFAA said:
Not that I'm disputing your word in any way, shape or form...I believe you honestly believe this...But having said that, I am a person of science and IMO, I think it is virtually impossible for human flesh to cause enough friction to cause any kind of wood to self ignite without some stage magic going on....Sorry, but I think the swamp land for sale in Arizona would be a better buy..;)
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Ohh gosh - I was hoping someone would actually believe my story. It's funny Dennis, but this is the kind of thing I would do with my kids as they were growing up. You could show me any picture and I'd come up with a fairly good story without the slightest thought (which made it sound even more believeable). On our recent trip to Goshen to visit Sarah we walked some hiking trails through a wooded park and took turns making up stories about everything we saw. When I finished they all said "Wow Dad, you're really good at this". Anyway if I were a very young child I may think that was possible - but don't say too much - cause I like people to visualize what I'm saying. The truth is however, I vividly remember the lighter fluid and the whole scene - so in a big way it was even better than my story because it really was a sacrifice - totally completely in respect to all.
 
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12%ayear said:
He was way ahead of his time. The best guarist. My top 3 1.Hendrix 2. Eddy Van Halen 3. jIMMY pAGE
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Musta been great for fans to see Jimmy P and the boys at the O2 arena a few nights ago. Sure wish it was me. I heard they were TIGHT :nuts:
 
Guitar picks and amps go far before the guitar itself goes. For more info, study surf guitar and Dick Dale and the Deltones.:nuts:
 
DennisFAA said:
I would not dispute your word in any way, shape or form...I believe this...But having said that, I am a person of science and IMO. It is virtually possible for human flesh to cause enough friction to cause any kind of wood to self ignite....but Jimi is the only one to date that made it happen...;)
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Wow thanks Dennis! I appreciate the support and it's great to have a real man of science confirm one of the biggest events in history.

For anyone new to the thread - go to post # 385 and read the real story of the greatest guitarist to ever live. Post # 384 is a picture - showing #385 is really true.
 
I forgot about post #382. In continuation... I've smoked the steaks really good - but still a little too much red in the middle so I'll sizzle these on a little bit longer.

It's easy to let a day like this drag ya down - but the volatility has been an ongoing issue and lest we forget just a few weeks ago we had the biggest gain in 5 years. So if anyone is looking for a little break from the doom and gloom threads - this is the place to be. Here we can talk about the more important things (like Hendrix and Page - the best football players of all time like Johnny Unitis - and places of special meaning). Anyway - be cool - have fun - enjoy and relax.

Peace, love, and happiness.
 
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