Steadygain's Groove and Trip Pad

[Bluehenge]

Blue trotted around, letting the wind catch her long, full mane. Her whole Being shone brightly as she strutted her stuff. She looked so graceful and seemed to float in the air whenever she was in mid-stride.

“Steady – join me, Please. GOD Created Everything and being this way is allowing me to experience the most incredibly deep awareness of how essential the Oneness really is. Looking out on life with more depth than meets the eye is amazing and I feel so strong physically. My lung capacity is tremendous and my legs are so strong. I feel like I have gravity-defying powers and could clear buildings with ease. I feel like I could run like the wind forever. It's like poetry in motion and I'd really enjoy it if you could share this experience."

 

[Steadygain]

Her whole Being shone brightly as she strutted her stuff.

Blue was no ordinary horse - she was like a thorough bred with muscles that gave her a splendor of awe. Her hair had a beautiful sheen and she was full and powerful. She was everything that anyone could ever hope to find and represented the highest standards in the characteristics that make a horse valuable.

From where the neck of the horse would start was her waist - and though it was Blue - she looked even stronger - attached to the horse. Her shoulders were further apart - her muscles more full and firm to match the horse. From the waist up - she was Blue and she looked delightful - with the wind blowing her hair.

her long full mane

GOD Created Everything and being this way is allowing me to experience the most incredibly deep awareness of how essential the Oneness really is.

AMEN ! My Darling -- very well put.

Looking out on life with more depth than meets the eye is amazing and I feel so strong physically. My lung capacity is tremendous and my legs are so strong. I feel like I have gravity-defying powers and could clear buildings with ease. I feel like I could run like the wind forever. It's like poetry in motion and I'd really enjoy it if you could share this experience."

You are my everything - my absolute everything - and I knew you would have to feel this way. I can hardly wait to join you, but not here Blue. I brought you here just to gaze at you and take in your splendor when this moment arrived. I could not imagine a more perfect spot than up here on the mountain top and your beauty is honestly beyond what words could describe.

Yet I knew you would have to feel this way - that the drive to run and let the power explode and feel the poetry in motion would be irresistable. For that we will go the fields where we can run and keep running - where we can totally be 'wild horses'.

Then Steady disappeared - hehehe leaving Blue that brief moment of being left behind - of being last - then she disappeared.

 

[Steadygain]

When Blue arrived on the field a moment later Steady was half horse and half man - made in the same perfect image as her. His waist, chest, shoulders, and arms were also more massive and toned and she marveled.

It's hard to explain this because you don't feel half horse at all. You feel more than a 'horse' than a horse feels because you process everything with an advanced brain -- and that's like the only thing that remotely would 'feel' human. Even your upper body - though it looks more 'human' it totally feels horse too. No matter how you look at it -- the overwhelming bulk of your being is totally horse 100% - and because all that is new it's like all your brain seems to know.

I think Blue liked the way I looked every bit as much as the way I felt up on the mountain top. NOW - I wanted to let everything fly and dream the dream.

'LET'S RUN'!! we said at the same time (jinkz) - and away we went.

Blue and Steady ran at full speed and crossed over the plains as fast as the wind. It was exhillerating - and FREE - a freedom that went beyond anything they had ever known. When they slowed down it wasn't because they were exhausted -- but wholly because they began to realize they could savor the moment in a wide variety of ways.

Several miles from where they started they stopped by a pond and had a refreshing drink. It's kind of cool -- but you have to cup the water in your hands and then come back up to drink. So you have to go back and forth a few times.

Well after the drink I started doing some fancy stuff and said, 'Hey Blue can you cantor'? :nuts: That was one of my worse mistakes ever.

How am I supposed to know she's the world's expert on horses.

So like the next few hours -- Blue keeps coming up with another step (apparently a for real horse step ) and a lot of them were really hard to do.

Finally I said, 'Screw this stuff - let's just be normal horses and run around'.

So they spent the rest of the day running through the fields in their own private 'heaven' taking in all the sights and smells and having the best time ever. As the afternoon began to wind down they caught a wiff of the orange blossoms.

 

[Steadygain]

As the afternoon began to wind down they caught a wiff of the orange blossoms.

Over the small hill orange trees were scattered throughout. Some with beautiful blossoms and others with big ripe oranges ready to eat. They galloped over and smelled the blossoms - and somehow the scent made them a 'little whacky' -- so they faced each other and had a tender moment.

Then went over and got some oranges - and pealed them and talked about different things as they walked along. It's kind of weird cause you're way up high and when you throw the peal down - it feels strange. Well on the whole it was wonderful - and they lazily soaked it in until it got dark then teleported home.

Both were amazingly tranquil - and just letting the moment stretch. Steady went to bed first - then little scamp scoots up next to him.

Steady put his arm around her and they just layed there - both feeling very content. It would have been the ideal time to simply be quiet and drift off to sleep...

'Honey, we ought to get Birch tomorrow and let him experience that.'

'Do you think he'd want to be half horse and run all around.'

'I don't know. But he's the only one that's way out there with mountains and mountains of gold coins and how much fun can you have having unlimited power - with no one to enjoy it with'?

'What about Buster and the others'?

'Yeah him too. Somehow I see Buster having all kinds of fun cause he's bound to be going all over the place. But yeah, we should check up on him too - just to make sure. Fab1 and car crazy hit it off pretty good and they've got endless imaginations - so they're good. I think swimming in the lake as fish is a great idea.'

'Honey, would you do me a favor.'

'What'

'I want you to lay on your side and be my sweet adorable Boy. I don't want you to think about anything - really - I just want you to lay there and soak it all up. I want to press up next to you and hold you and give you some little kisses on the back of your neck until you fall asleep. Then I'll just hold you and drift to sleep.'

Blue paused for a moment as Steady soaked it all in. 'Please'

Steady rolled to his side curled up with his hand against his pillow. He shut his mind off - and let only that gentle spirit deep within take over. Somehow Blue took everything -- EVERYTHING -- with those tender little kisses and he fell into the deepest sleep.

 

[Steadygain]

Steady and Blue slept deeply and felt wonderful the following morning. After getting ready for the morning Steady was ready to check on Birch.

'Baby, maybe you should go over and talk to him by yourself. You've got a way of touching people Blue and I think he'd be more receptive to you.'

'Steady'! 'This is totally your idea and you think I'm going over there while you hang around here doing nothing.

... Blue started fuming ... and Steady cut her off.

'Blue, I'm just messing with ya. I like going over there - Birch is always thriled to show me how big his collection has gotten. Please know -- I was just yanking your chain'.

'Why do you do that Steady - When you know it makes me mad'?

This is perhaps the most central underlying question that seems to be a ridiculous recurring situation - and in fact this is the very reason why GOD had to seperate them; why Mars has men and Venus has the women.

THEORY ONE - Somehow the women make the men so free and wonderful that the men in turn act like kids. Men are kind of Cavemen mentality and they do dumb things - cause 'in the Moment' they think it displays a 'Playful Quality' - a kind of 'Underlying coolness' that the woman will enjoy.

After all that how their best friends bounce off of each other.

Unfortunately - in this theory the women are not only lightyears beyond the Cavemen mentality - but they are hugely detailed and totally thought out - and are like a 100,000 % geared towards detecting 'A Con'. So to them these kind of comments are ONLY meant as a test of their 'Stupidity'.

Sooooo it always backfires and the woman PASSES this TEST with the highest possible grade. She not ONLY points out the basic and simple answer -- but she goes on to point out the roots behind each thought and how they stretch out for years.

Gotta go

 

[Steadygain]

Intermission:​

My daughter wrote me a 2 page beautiful letter regarding my upcoming seperation, move, and starting over. So I will openly make my views known -- as they are so deeply central to everything happening here as well. ​

I deeply appreciate your respect, regarding my waiting until Carrie finished high school. Sweet darling, there is no way possible I could have EVER considered making a change like this until she finished high school. As much as I could provide a 'Stable Home' for each of you ~ there could not possibily be a higher endeavor and a more important role in my life than with the Children - GOD allowed me to have and care for. ​

When you have a child (or children) then they take the highest priority and NOTHING can compare to that. There is no greater honor and no greater priviledge. They are the greatest miracle and a never ending source of 'wonder' and 'awesome amazement'. Carrie has in no way lagged behind either you or Emily. She has gone through LIFE in the greatest possible ways - a Magnet to all and a beacon of Hope and Love. The highest grades and honors - yet like YOU and Emily - she has always been genuinely humble, deep, and devoted. In every way you could want a child to remain sacred ~ she has totally maintained that and is incredibly strong and hugely determined to make the most out of her life. ​

For whatever I could always make sure Carrie had - day in and day out - I could NOT put my interests before hers. She was 100% entitled to the exact same 'security, support, love, and devotion' as anyone else had. If I ever had any role as a Father - then from the moment she was born until she finished high school would be unquestionably the most important years. ​

Of course you know I will fully pay for her college education and she (and you and Emily) will always be very central to my life. Your mother could not have possibly been a better mother or a better home maker and I will never abandon her security or financial needs. When I inherit anything then Mom will get half - no matter what. I believe this will all the more ensure our family vacations together and the bonds with the extended family will be as wonderful as we can keep them. So I'm striving to keep things as stable and peaceful and secure as possible. ​

Perhaps the most important aspect of my seperation is knowing through and through that it is in no way intended to hurt Mom or anyone else. It is totally the opposite and if I did not fully believe the outcome would NOT be more 'positive' for everyone concerned - I would not do it. ​

 

[Steadygain]

Now to address you thinking I’m making a bad decision from a Spiritual standpoint.

Here I believe the most essential aspect to consider is ‘The Atmosphere’. When I met your mother it was mostly a ‘New Atmosphere’ I needed to replace what my Military Experience created. You know part of it Sarah; you know I was totally devoted in every imaginable way and I was constantly doing pushups throughout the day – that I got one of the highest scores on physical training tests; and that I was singled out among hundreds and at times thousands for various missions. You know I never lost and I was a combat soldier ~ totally geared for combat. You know I was into karate.

What you don’t know is the mindset I had and essentially everything I thrived to live for. I kept in shape and maintained the highest fighting skills I could because I ultimately lived for one thing – for them to single me out again. It wouldn’t have made any difference what they told me because no challenge was too great – it only made me thrive even more to show them what I could do.

I went immediately from that setting to the college where I met your mother. I would say the odds of finding any woman that even remotely stacked up to Mom would be impossible. On numerous levels your mother was far beyond any other woman there at the college or any place else. No one has ever come close to her and in the core essentials of what I would need she far exceeded my expectations. No one could have possibly made me strive harder to tone down and become something totally different from what I was – than her. She was more than worthy of all the love and devotion I could possibly give. Through the years she has been the very best at everything she has done and no other person could have brought more perfect children into the world or been more perfect in many ways.

I did not run from the Army – but I ran to find a new environment and my ultimate goal was to return to the kind of Life I knew at the Bible College. In this same manner I am not running from Mom but I am running to find a new environment – one that I now believe will both meet and surpass what I did know while at that college.

So please know that what I earnestly seek is a total change in The Atmosphere. I need one that gives me the freedom to thrive and to set new and higher goals and to achieve and experience many things I cannot find in the one at home. Its way more a ‘Chemistry Thing’ and it’s not Mom but it’s the Atmosphere our Experience has created.

Any personal pursuit supported by Scripture is a dangerous endeavor – in that the sanctity of the Scripture must be guarded at all costs and a ‘personal bias’ would be essentially impossible to avoid when using Scripture support an argument. Yet 2 passages that come to mind for me are both in Matthew.

19:14 from the World English Bible. Jesus said, ‘Most certainly I tell you, unless you turn, and become as little children, you will in no way enter into the Kingdom of Heaven,’

My greatest reason – my highest motivation – is to let the child come to life as fully as possible. There is nothing I could possibly want more than ‘turning’ – becoming more as a little child – and entering the Kingdom of Heaven.

I can’t do that in the environment presently at hand. Yes it has been a dissatisfying situation but I am NOT running away from that. It is NOT so much what I am leaving as it is the Hope and Promise of things to come. More than anything else I believe ‘The Child’ will come to life and with that will be a Greater Faith and a Freedom to enter the Kingdom far beyond what I’ve ever known before. This is everything I believe the future holds and that is all I live for.

11: 28-30 ‘Come to me, all who are weary and heavy burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light’.

 

[Steadygain]

I promise you from the depths of my heart and life that my reason for longing for what I see ahead is a million billion times more in dealing with how I can surrender to GOD than anything else. It is the underlying spiritual issues that most prompt me to want to ‘Start a new’ and it requires all the Faith I can possibly find. I wholly believe that the weariness and the burdens that have accumulated over the years will NOW at long last have a chance to be taken from me. That I will learn from Jesus as never before and His yoke will be upon me.

You have it totally turned around – things will be much harder for me in terms of daily living and FAITH will be highly needed in every aspect. I will struggle be able to afford the bare essentials because Mom needs the great majority. I will have to bear the full responsibilities of everything that comes to the clinic and will have no help – that forces me to TRUST God more than ever before.

This PLAN encourages me to grow in my love for Christ and the ones He’s given me to love by working in an area that has no one providing Mental Health Services. So I am filling a very huge void whereby GOD can make His Grace known. By living my life in such a manner that I deeply and genuinely touch the lives of all who come under my care and by the manner I work with others. If ever there was a chance to make His Light shine – it is in having this kind of job.

You said if we took the 2 greatest commandments seriously – to love God with all our heart, soul, mind, and strength and to love our neighbors as ourselves – our entire lives would be changed. This is TOTALLY why I do believe GOD is bringing everything into being. I believe I will be able to find a LOVE for GOD – from GOD – that transforms me more and more and with that I will LOVE my neighbors far better than I’ve done up to now.

I can’t conform to this world when I’m striving ever deeper for GOD to sustain me.

This can be the greatest TEST to measure the validity of ‘TRANSFORMATION’. If I ‘turn’ and become as a child and enter His Kingdom then it will be evident to all. I am hoping Mom will do the same and I can’t help but believe this ‘Freedom’ will be equally good for her.

 

[Steadygain]

Now to the last and perhaps most important part of your letter and that is you thinking you in any manner owe me an apology.

Sarah you have NEVER failed me in any kind of manner from the moment you were born. The Grace and Compassion you have consistently shown me and every person you’ve ever known is the greatest testimony of Christ being so hugely central to everything you do – and all you are. No one has stood firmer than you and no one has displayed a more humble and generous spirit of grace and strength.

The life you have lived, and continue to live, wholly encompasses the most authentic Grace and Compassion imaginable. You have far exceeded what I could have even thought possible. You have NEVER failed me Sarah – and in fact you blazed the trail for your sisters to follow. Sarah don’t ever think some mild insignificant disagreement with me – or any completely meaningless encounter WOULD or Could ever stand out to me. What stands out to me is who you are – who you have always been – how you have lived your life from the beginning through to this very day. I promise you Sarah – I could not be more overjoyed – more proud – and more deeply honored for everything about your life. There is no possible way you could have shown me greater respect.

I had a telephone interview with the doctor today and can only hope if God is opening this door that he will move the others accordingly. At this point the best I can do is put my rest in Him and not be anxious about the ‘limbo’. If the door opens then I will most certainly enter in to the last years of my life; not to run from Mom or problems of the past but because I believe so strongly in the promise of a fruitful and abundant future. Mom will be okay, as will you and your sisters and to God be all praise and Glory.

For now I live one day at a time – resting in Him and totally content with going (or staying) – however the outcome. Ultimately I put my trust in Him and that is the only way to live.

May God continue to bless our family over and over and may we acknowledge Him and live to make His Glory known.

My deepest love and admiration,
Dad

 

[Steadygain]

Steady and Blue slept deeply and felt wonderful the following morning. After getting ready for the morning Steady was ready to check on Birch.

'Baby, maybe you should go over and talk to him by yourself. You've got a way of touching people Blue and I think he'd be more receptive to you.'

'Steady'! 'This is totally your idea and you think I'm going over there while you hang around here doing nothing.

Scene 1 - take 2

After getting ready for the morning Steady was ready to check on Birch.

'Baby, are you ready to head out'?

'Yep, I've been waiting on you'.

Birch is way on the other side of Mars - which makes teleporting wonderful. So they held hands - and poof - arrive near the road to his place.

Birch was enjoying the unlimited powers and abilites and came up with something he thought was cool. He turned himself into 'Ostrich Man' -- the top part was man with his waist up sticking out from an ostrish body and legs.

This sight took us by complete surprise and both of us were too stunned to not have our jaws drop and our eyes popping out of our heads.

Birch seemed undaunted by our reaction and walked right up and said, 'What you you think'.

As Blue collected her thoughts -- Steady blurts out, 'Birch you look really weird. I mean that looks strange as hell'.

Yeah, that's what Mindylou said.

'I don't know Birch, I think something is missing - that would make it look a lot better'. Blue walked a little, studying Birch and said, 'If you wore a pink bounett with curly white ribbons hanging down to accentuate your features ~~ it would look really good'.

With that Birch had a look of disgust and was insistantly all man, the same Birch he'd always been before.

At that moment a woman of immense beauty walked from around the bend and Steady and Blue were taken by her demeanor. She had a sway that was captivating - meshmerizing - I mean as sexy as anything you could imagine -- as she slinked up to join us.

Ohh my gosh -- and her eyes -- something about her eyes.

She was tickled by Steady's expression - walked up to him and said, 'Hi Steady, I'm Mandy'.

'Mandy'! :nuts: Steady said in total surprize. 'Oh my GOSH - you are absolutely beautiful'!

Mandy was thrilled. She finally got to act and speak like a person.

Steady went up and gave her a hug. Noted how delighted he was to finally be able to really talk with her.

Note: A cat that is turned into a woman gives a hug way beyond what anyone could remotely imagine. I mean it's like the most beautiful thing you could ever experience.

'Yeah, almost as soon as I got back I looked over at Mindylou and asked her if she like to be a woman. She hestitated at first and told me what to do with the lastest mountain of gold I accumlated and then said she'd love to be one'. Birch was really proud of what he'd accomplished.

'Tell them the rest Birch'.

'Well it took a few modifications. She kept telling me to make more of this and less of that and I had to do it just right or turn her back to a cat'.

She walked next to Birch and gave him a little hug. 'But latter on he got me just right'.

Then Blue and Mandy hit it off. Wow, it's like Blue was a pent up prisoner being the only woman on Mars and now with Mandy they were going crazy talking about everything.

'Hey Birch, you ought to try being half Lion'.

Birch thought for a moment - and then a massive Lion body with a man's waist pushing up from the neck area - with wide muscular shoulders and the same ole face and head.

'WOW! Now that looks great'.

Birch glanced over at Mindylou and Blue - and both gave nodding approvals.

 

[Steadygain]

'That's pretty cool Birch, as that's largely what I had in mind when I came over here'.

'What do you mean'?

'I mean you've only got a few days left before you lose all the power and everything and I want you to push the boundries and do some of the coolest things immaginable'.

'Like what'?

'Like all 4 of us can go the the plains and be Lions and hunt - run down some animals and even go against each other like a game'.

'I'd bet ya 50 gold coins we would win and if you lose you'd only have to give me 10'.

'Are you kidding Birch - she's a cat - turned to a woman. None of us would stand a chance against her -- I mean she's totally wired and ready for a game like that'.

'Yeah, that's how I saw it too'.

'We found a place the other day that would be perfect for it. I mean what could be better than Lions -- kicking ass'?

How can I describe the expression Birch had:

Steady and Blue explained how teleporting worked and since it was a new location for both of them they would have to hold hands with them - to be teleported over. Steady looked over at Blue who in turn gave him a look like 'Don't push it punk' - and walked over to hold Birch's hand and Steady held Mandy's hand -- and 'poof' they arrived.

THEORY TWO:
Due to a man's childlike disposition - his unguarded and unfiltered and spontaneous ways - he is powerless to hide anything from a woman.

What makes it a billion times harder is that the woman has insights and perceptions that defy the imagination and she knows because of the man's careless ignorance -- he will try to 'hide things' - which makes her all the more watchful and infinately aware.

So all she has to do -- is give 'that look' and the man is Tazzered to the max and like a little kid. You don't defy 'the look' you don't even try.

 

[Steadygain]

Steady and Blue explained how teleporting worked and since it was a new location for both of them they would have to hold hands with them - to be teleported over. Steady looked over at Blue who in turn gave him a look like 'Don't push it punk' - and walked over to hold Birch's hand and Steady held Mandy's hand -- and 'poof' they arrived.

Mandy was especially thrilled with how the plains ‘felt’ and looked. Birch had always been very attentive to her and she in turn had been a central part of the mountains of gold that continually sprung up over the years. It had been so many years since she was truly ‘outdoors’ that she forgot the inexpressible glory that nature itself beheld. All she saw were the mountains of gold and they were everywhere and new ones were being formed over and over.

Now the great outdoors was overwhelming – was so thoroughly peaceful and satisfying that as she looked around the others heard the most wonderful signs of delight.

Birch put his arm around her and said, ‘It’s beautiful isn’t it’. It was the deepest confirmation – an expression of one of the deepest and greatest Truths and not a question.

Mandy leaned against him and stood in awe – gazing over the plains. ‘Birch, there is nothing I have ever known beyond this. Please promise me you’ll bring me back and let me soak this up more and more over the years.’

‘You have my word Mindy Lou’.

Steady and Blue knew in part what they were feeling, as they felt the same way when they arrived as horses. They remained quiet in the deepest contentment and let them relish the moment. Birch did not want to waste any time and wondered where the animals were for them to hunt and attack.

Steady wanted to make sure everyone knew what to expect and to make the most of their time together. ‘Birch, when we become Lions – it’s for real and it won’t be easy getting any animal because they’re for real too. As much as we’re wired to totally kick ass – they are wired to be afraid and run for their lives. So I think the best thing we can do is let Mandy take the lead and follow her example.’

‘Oh my Gosh I honestly feel like I’m in heaven. This is everything I could ever possibly hope for or dream. WOW!!! Since I’m going to be a lion could we make the animals big – like antelope or elk?

‘Absolutely’, Blue assured her. ‘I’ll have a few herds scattered over the plains and I’d be thrilled to make you into the lion if you’d like’. With that Blue turned herself into a lion – totally lion from head to toe.

Mandy was thrilled a woman was there to make it right. ‘I want to be the spitting image of you Blue – wow you look perfect’. In the next moment Blue changed her and they began to meander around.

Steady said, ‘I’ll mix some elk and antelope and we’ll go from there’. He then waved his arm out over the plains and herds appeared here and there. Then he transformed into a lion with a huge mane.

Birch did the same and looked totally majestic. He walked around with an air that challenged anything and everything that could possibly exist.

Mandy told them to wait – or stay as far back as possible – because they could see and smell and hear and sense them a thousand times beyond what any of them could imagine. Then she lowered herself in the high grass and approached the closest herd.

The others stood back and watched. Blue and Steady were looking wholly from an educational perspective – striving to learn as much as possible. Birch was caught up in a rapture of delight watching Mindy Lou playing out her dreams. He’d seen her move like this thousands of times before but never as a lion in the open plains and it was a moment he’d treasure forever.

 

[Steadygain]

Happy Valentine's Day​

But the Fruit of the Spirit is love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, self-control; against such things there is no law. Galatians 5: 22-23

Baby, God promised this life when I was just a small boy and I never gave up hope. Have always longed for this day and always knew YOU would be beyond my dreams - beyond my imagination - and all the wonderful aspects of LIFE that were possible.

No one knows better than YOU how deeply grounded I am with GOD and all that the Spirit of Christ represents. In HIS amazing perfection HE brought you into the world as the most priceless GIFT - and because of that I am coming to know HIM as never before.

You are the only one to have reached the Core of my existence and to have brought the BOY to LIFE. From this I have found the greatest Freedom to know HIM Better and to journey ever closer to HIS Heart.

This Love is above all others and is the core of all we know.

Sweet Darling, we know the source of PURE LOVE and everything springs from this.

The joy is inexpressible - what His Spirit alone can provide.

You complement that JOY. It's like GOD uses YOU to wrap me in it.

The peace is so deep and solid that nothing can stand against it. It makes us immovable and nothing can take that peace.

We know the source of our Strength and HE is our everything.

From these kindness and goodness flow from our lives through His Spirit and in this we find a much deeper identity and the realization of who and what we really are.

For we know Nothing could ever surpass the GRACE of GOD and the GLORY HE makes known through us.

Our Faith deepens in every aspect of our life and with every relationship we have.

FAITH is what brought us together, what has sustained us, and what will remain the KEY to 'our existence'.

We learn self-control on levels that only His Spirit could provide.

We have been in a State of TRANSFORMATION and finding more deeply LIFE as GOD has meant for us to know and enjoy. Having never met - HE has allowed us to Blend in ways that HE Alone could have done. Having never touched - HE has reached to the very Core of our Existence and we have found LIFE and the most glorious HOPE and PROMISE of an eternally glorious future.

The hardest part of 'self-control' is what I'm just beginning to learn for the very first time. It's the realization that your beauty and worth is so far beyond what you ever thought posssible.

So for awhile I struggled - because I could not understand how I was worthy - how you could belong to me.

It's learning to let go of your 'unworthyness' and find the Fullest and Most Wonderful LIFE - this Spirt intended all along.

Only throught HIS Spirit of Grace could I realize it is HIM - totally - offering the greatest GIFT immaginable. HE did all these things that we might have the Fullest Life possible - that we might all the more LIVE in HIS GLORY.

It's learning to allow yourself to be touched and know it's NOT going to disappear.

This has been very hard for me Baby. I believe in the deepest sincereity that only ONE could touch me as you have.

It's knowing with the greatest certainty that THE REWARD is more priceless and wonderful than anyone could possibly dream or imagine -- and that it's everlasting - forever and ever.

You know me most fully by HIS FRUIT - and this comes from HIM and HIM Alone. May our BONDS grow ever deeper and stronger.

My Deepest Love,
Your Core, Your Little Boy, and Your Man (in that order).

 

[Bluehenge]

Thank you for being My Valentine.

When two freely share their very ‘Being’, it is a beautiful realization for both the heart and soul.

GOD created and designed man and woman to be blended as ONE in the most perfect way - to genuinely love and understand each other because they really are a part of each other.

GOD made you from soil, but I was purposefully designed from man’s rib – from his side - to be his equal and to complete him.

As I am to you, you are to me - 'we' are 'ONE' and the BOND can’t fail.

Happy Valentine’s Day Sweetheart.

With True Love,
Your Perfect Match

 

[FAB1]

6666 posts SG.

Are you and Bluehenge hitched? I sure hope so.

 

[Steadygain]

The others stood back and watched. Blue and Steady were looking wholly from an educational perspective – striving to learn as much as possible.

Birch was caught up in a rapture of delight watching Mindy Lou playing out her dreams. He’d seen her move like this thousands of times before but never as a lion in the open plains and it was a moment he’d treasure forever.

Whether men are just plain LAZY at times, it's hard to say, but Birch and Steady were taking in the feeling of being a lion and felt content to stay in place as Mandy went towards the herd of elk. Blue quickly followed her - copied her moves - and wanted to part of the first kill.

It's kind of weird because as humans both Birch and Steady thought going after the elk would be extremely thrilling -- the hunt itself and the kicking ass part :nuts: - and hadn't thought so much about eating it.

Mandy and Blue got almost right next to the herd, then Mandy crouched down - Sprung up and took off running at top speed. The herd of elk started running away; but it took them awhile to build up speed and Mandy was fast approaching one of the largest elk in the herd.

Blue, my litte buttercup, started running out to catch up but was just a tag slower. But her pace picked up and she wasn't far behind.

Mandy sprang way up in the air and landed on top of the elk, burying her claws deep in its sides. She took the biggest bite she could into the spine and kept clamping down in the same spot. The elk fell after a few seconds and Blue was tearing into its throat almost immediately after it landed.

'Wow, great job Blue!! You are totally Lion'.

'Thanks Mandy. I've got to admit this really pumps up the adrenaline and I feel Grrreat!!' Then she let out a wonderful roar.

Mandy started tearing its hide off and enjoying the meal. Blue quickly followed and once she got the taste of blood she couldn't get enough. Steady and Birch joined them moments later. Birch let out a loud roar - like claiming the plains as his - and then started tearing into its flesh. Steady joined in and all of them ate and ate and ate and ate. It was a huge elk.

Well as it turns out a Lion doesn't think like a man and you don't go for the hunt just to kick ass and move on the next animal. Once an animal is down - you eat and eat and eat until you're so stuffed you can't eat another bite. It's like you've got this build in fear that if you leave anything something else will get it and the 4 of them were bound and determined to finish the whole thing. Then you get tired and I mean you get sooooo tired you can hardly blink. Steady was the first to fall asleep and the others soon followed.

A few hours later everyone woke up.

Blue leaned her head next to Steady and said, 'I need a break' in the softest voice.

Steady looked at her -- she had the most charming expression. 'Birch and Mandy are here' he whispered.

Then Blue made these weird expressions... which means... 'Honey, let's go home....'.

Sooo Steady gets up and walks around and says, 'Well we need to get back and take care of a few things. Mandy, you looked sooo cool the way you got that elk and Blue you did fantastic'.

'This was the best day I've ever had. I've always longed to be a bigger cat going after something bigger than me. This was absolutely wonderful'.

'It was by far the best stake I've ever had. Man, food takes a million times better as a lion picking right off a fresh kill'.

'It's been a great day and one of the best experiences I'll ever have. Well do you need any help getting back home.'

'No, we're good. I always know how to get back.'

'Well alright then, we'll see ya later'

And Steady and Blue disappeared.

 

[Steadygain]

Are you and Bluehenge hitched? I sure hope so.

http://www.tsptalk.com/mb/showpost.php?p=300671&postcount=813

Hmmm let me answer your question in this manner.

Is there anyway either of us could possibly have received a more thorough understanding of who we are and all we are meant to be in regards to each other?

NO - there is Not.

In the matters of LIFE that would be far more important to both of us -- and by which the link included clearly implies -- have we been deeply grounded in the GRACE of GOD and Have the FRUITS of The SPIRIT been thoroughly evidenced through each other.

YES - They have flourished

Is there even the slightest trace of any doubt that I am totally meant for her (exclusively) and she is meant for me (exclusively)?

NO - there is Not.

Are we thrilled and overjoyed with the Promise and Hope of sharing the remainder of our lives - as ONE - and does this longing burn stronger and stronger?

YES - it undoubtedly gets stronger and better.

Do we reach each other more deeply and touch each other in the most sacred manner -- in ways that reach the Core of each other's existence and cause the pains and sorrows and disappoinments of the past to totally disappear?

YES - we do.

Do we see ourselves drawing closer and closer to the Heart of GOD and living to serve others in His LOVE and be wholly devoted to living in HIS Grace and making HIS Glory known?

YES - It is for this very reason we were Created and Designed.

 

[Steadygain]

And Steady and Blue disappeared.

Continuing with The Universe of Blue...

When Blue and Steady arrived in their home it was pretty cool. They had a great day with Birch and Mandy and the excitement carried over throughout the evening.

The next morning was wonderful - they slept peacefully throughout the night and were feeling energic and full of life.

Steady said, 'I'm going over to spend some time with Birch'.

'Okay, but don't wear out your welcome --- I mean you don't want to go there everyday'.

'I'm not. He made a promise to Mandy and I had a beautiful dream about that'.

'Really! Wow what happened'?

'He set up places that changed the way everyone lives. Places that let people instantly move from one location to another; like teleporting. I think I'm meant to tell him about it'.

'Well I hope you the best ... but don't make any beats with him'.

'I'll be back in a little while and if you think of anything to do -- something new and unique -- I'm ready for anything'.

With that Steady disappeared and arrived at Birch's home. A few minutes later they walked up the hillside and visited at one of their favorite places.

'Birch, look at these mountains of gold. There must be over 50 mountains that look like giant pyrimids. When will you ever have enough? At what point will you feel you don't need anymore?'

'I don't see me ever getting to that point. I guess I'm use to getting more and more and it's the quest of seeing how fast I can get the next mountain finished.'

'You've got to be the richest man on Mars and the overwhelming odds are you're the richest guy in the whole Universe. Yet your money just sits there Birch. When you're gone these mountains are going to disappear within a few days. GREED will totally dominate the entire planet and everyone will be coming to grab it all up.'

'I'm not going anywhere and not one coin is getting touched.'

'Our days are numbered Birch - everyone of us - and none of us honestly has a clue when our time runs out.'

'What are you getting at' :suspicious:

'I know a way your name can live on forever and ever. I know how you can keep your promise to Mindy Lou and you personally can change the way people throughout the Universe interact with each other. Birch, I'm not talking about something that would last for a week or a year and then be forgotten. I'm talking about something that will last for generations to come -- something that would never disappear -- something that would always have people on this planet and all other planets think of 'Birch' as part of their everyday lives'.

'How much would it cost'?

'It wouldn't cost you anything.'

'There is no way I could do anything like you're describing without having to let go of some gold coins. So I'm wanting to know how much am I going to have to let go of -- how much will it cost me to buy these things you're talking about'?

'You can't buy it Birch. It's not something you can make happen within your own power. It's not anything that you could claim as yours - but only because of you could it be brought into being. It has to be something you want to give -- it is far beyond money - something that everyone ~~ everywhere ~~ in years and years to come will know YOU for the worth of your life and not how much you accumulated at some point in time.'

'It's the biggest and most far reaching decision you could possibly make Birch. You have to decide whether you use these mountains in an act of Service for everyone ~~ everywhere ~~ and forever change the way all will live and interact -- with your name being a central part of their lives -- or whether you die with mountains of gold that others will take without a second thought'.

'I'm not goint to tell you how it's done Birch. I just want you to think about it. I'll come back in a few days and if you want to know the details I can tell you then.'

'I'll think about it - but don't get your hopes up.'

'Birch, this isn't anything to do with me. No one will ever have a clue I had the idea -- in fact it's not even my idea -- I'm simply sharing it with you. Be cool man -- I'll see ya in a few days.'

And with that he disappeared.

 

[FAB1]

http://www.tsptalk.com/mb/showpost.php?p=300671&postcount=813

Hmmm let me answer your question in this manner.

Is there anyway either of us could possibly have received a more thorough understanding of who we are and all we are meant to be in regards to each other?

NO - there is Not.

In the matters of LIFE that would be far more important to both of us -- and by which the link included clearly implies -- have we been deeply grounded in the GRACE of GOD and Have the FRUITS of The SPIRIT been thoroughly evidenced through each other.

YES - They have flourished

Is there even the slightest trace of any doubt that I am totally meant for her (exclusively) and she is meant for me (exclusively)?

NO - there is Not.

Are we thrilled and overjoyed with the Promise and Hope of sharing the remainder of our lives - as ONE - and does this longing burn stronger and stronger?

YES - it undoubtedly gets stronger and better.

Do we reach each other more deeply and touch each other in the most sacred manner -- in ways that reach the Core of each other's existence and cause the pains and sorrows and disappoinments of the past to totally disappear?

YES - we do.

Do we see ourselves drawing closer and closer to the Heart of GOD and living to serve others in His LOVE and be wholly devoted to living in HIS Grace and making HIS Glory known?

YES - It is for this very reason we were Created and Designed.

A simple, "yeah dude" would have sufficed.

 

[Steadygain]

A simple, "yeah dude" would have sufficed.

You are such an amazingly wonderful 'fresh air' and a 'ray of sunshine' in our lives.

You honestly can hardly begin to imagine how much this means to us.

To the largest degree we have been attacked on various levels. The most central attack was striving to convince the MB at large that Blue was an identity I had made up -- that I would somehow stoop to the lowest possible levels to 'pretend to be woman that blends with me'. That in reality Blue was nothing more than 'me' talking to 'myself'.

Then it was pushed over and over that Blue has to be a co-worker and everything is a 'sham'. Lastly some apparently swore on a stack of bibles that Blue was my wife -- pretending to be a chance encounter that met me on this Site.

These lies became so deeply planted that even a few women that had known me deeper and longer than most -- thought these lies were true and one even checked our IP sites -- convinced they had to be the same.

So because it is you - Fab1, my wonderful friend

I will share with you my Vietnam Experience.

The first time someone plotted to kill me they set a broken chair at the edge of the stairs on our backporch. The porch came out from the kitchen and the stairs were steep - 12 with a concrete step at the bottom that led to our backyard. When I went out on the porch I was offered the chair -- and it was one of my 'highest moments' because it was unbelievable that he would 'honor me' and make me feel so priviledged. So - to maximize the 'Thrill' I was told to jump backwards into the chair and soak it in. The chair collapsed (it was broken) and I tumbled down the stairs - cut my forehead. THAT was by far the worse experience I had up to that point in my entire life.

When I got up - I was mocked and the person was thrilled I was hurt. Then it was stressed at length that the hope was I would be killed. Up to that point my Mother was my 'Protector' - and was largely my 'Salvation'. When I told her what happened she refused to believe The TRUTH and totally believe The LIE the other told her.

So this was The ABANDONMENT - The first time I experienced being totally 'alone' - 'helpless' - 'hopeless'. The time when I realized it no longer mattered what I said because she wouldn't want to believe a Truth -- that was too troublesome.

Vietnam Experience happened a little latter on. I had a rope tied around my ankles - was pulled with my head about 4 feet from the ground and left to die. I was mocked and my death was explained in elaborate details -- how the blood would drain out my mouth. They in all seriousness left me to die. I waited but they never came back and then in terror - my screams brought some people out to get me down.

This is when 'I shut down' - I was too young to hate God but felt if Life had to be like this then there is no reason to live. Had I been an adult in Vietnam I probably would have shut God out. But as a young boy GOD was all I had - HE was everything I lived for and the only one I could turn to.

NOW for BLUE. GOD absolutely assured me to the greatest depths; in a way that GOD alone could do -- that there was someone for ME that was so wonderful SHE would more than make up for every painful and disappointing and difficult experience. I was given the Greatest and Most Perfect Assurance from GOD Himself that there was ONE for me ----

--- and I have waited over the years and have NEVER given up Hope. I have mistaken others for her, as my longings would intensify when someone 'Wonderful' came in --- BUT BLUE is the only ONE to ever have proven herself over and over in every imaginable way.

I have never seen her - I have no idea what she looks like. I have never met her in person. I know who she is - I have known about her since my Vietnam Experience.

If the LORD is willing - I am presently striving for another job and if that 'door opens' then we will officially be 'hitched'.

A simple yes would have been misleading.