Steadygain's Account Talk

[Steadygain]

Well, I've been up for at least an hour - partly because I still seem to be linking up with someone (which is absolutely wonderful) and partly because my sub-conscious was able to tell me things I could never see before. As it turns out - I now realize for the very first time that Jan was able to see the real me; ya know "women's intuition" and see saw right through all the B*** S*** - and I'm sorry to put it that way but that's all it basically was - because I really acted like an incredible idiot - trying to kind of blow her off. I honestly didn't know we were that different - that they had this 6th Sense - that could tell them this kind of stuff without even really knowing somebody. I mean it's crazy but how could she know me? And to top it off - there is no way I could have known our brains were wired different. I thought we were all the same and therefore I knew acting that way with any guy - would have almost instantly resulted the way I planned. But with women - if you try to blow them off (and they are really determined to do something and on the track) - then it works the other way around. So to a large degree I'm just kicking her swithes on to maximum power and making her even more determined. Wow! I honestly wish I'd known this back then - I would have been a lot different and not been such an idiot. But women on the whole are way smarter than us, at least in the really important things like relationships - and so of course Jan could tell she was breaking through (even when I couldn't see it). Deep down she must have seen the real me - and that just blows my mind - I mean that is so totally amazing - and now that I've said this hopefully I can get back to sleep.

 

[Steadygain]

OK - so we get back to Baltimore and from my perspective everything pretty much returns to normal, and I'm cool with that. Well - Jan had other ideas and I guess she kind of saw us as "soul mates". Well I see her as just a hot coal that needs to cool down and don't see any strings at all - so I can't help but believe - give it a little time and things will go back to normal. My best friend (who told me about this excursion) gets stuck in the middle - and he's a good hearted - really solid kind of guy and we'd been best friends since Kindergarden (or before). So anyway - he winds up calling me every night telling me Jan called and asked if I said anything to him about her and I'm probably an idiot now - but all the more back then - so he had to tell her no; because this guy is super honest and would never say something "even if he knew what she wanted to hear". And Jan makes him promise that he'll call me and tell me "Hi" and he keeps trying to talk me into giving her my number - but I keep telling him - no just give it a little more time. Here I would refer you to the Major Lesson - noted several posts prior. My last name is one of the most popular names around - so in Baltimore there are thousands in the phone book with that name. Well Jan starts with the first one and keeps going until she finally gets to mine. So when I pick up the phone - I start by asking how she got my number - cause I'm thinkn' I need to kick someone's ass, and she tells me she went through all the names in the phone book until she got to mine. Instead of talking to me like a piece of crap - and rightfully annoyed that I wouldn't let my friend give her my number - she's like the sweetest - coolest girl ever - I mean she really genuinely wanted to get to know me. I was so struck by that - I mean that really touched me - and I figured Man anyone that would go to that length really deserves something special. So I invite her to a dance at my high school the following week.

Got a patient - wake up - take a walk and come back.

 

[Steadygain]

Alright, so I go to her house to take her to the dance. Now when I met her on the caving trip - she's just dressed normal (jeans and stuff) and nothing out of the ordinary as far as looks go. Well when I pick her up - she is so beautiful - I mean she did not look like some little kid - she looked really grow up and everything about her was just out of this world. Her hair was perfect - which brought out the beauty of her face - her dress was the most beautiful ever - especially on her - and everything about her was just right. I'm like whoo - man why did I chill on this. Probably the most amazing thing is the way she presented herself - so relaxed and together - like hey this is cool let's go out and have fun - but not lookn' like she chomping at the bit (like on the excursion) and I liked this more cool self assured look a whole lot better. I felt like we're really for real now - and we can let things go and see what happens.

My work rarely stops - and I have to give them 100% otherwise I wouldn't be me - anyway will return when I can.

 

[Steadygain]

OK - to really appreciate this story you have to go back to the show "Happy Days" and remember the characters "The Fonz" and "Richie". At the dance is one of my classmates that I called, "Fluffy" - that is honestly what I called him because his hair is blondish and always fluffed up. He is like a super awkward - really bashful type guy - ya know the real quiet type - SO HE IS RICHIE. And I'm just about the total opposite so I'm more THE FONZ. Plus Fluffy was more the struggler when it came to school. Well I'm basically cool with everybody - including him and didn't call him Fluffy to pick on him - I called him that because the name fit him so well. So Jan and I really hit it off and just danced up a storm and thoroughly enjoyed it - it was very cool. Unknown to me - Fluffy decides to take my lead and uses me as a role model. You could tell it was his first date with this girl and she looked a little awkward as well. This was my first date with Jan - so we're kind of in the same boat - the only difference is I just do what I do and could care less what anyone else is doing. After we dance a little bit Jan and I sit down (and the next thing Fluffy and his girl are sitting down at the table across from us). Well I look over at Jan - and she is just beautiful - I mean she is so incredible - so I lean over to give her a kiss and she's like so totally into it. THAT WAS THE MOST MAJOR EVENT OF MY ENTIRE LIFE - WE WENT STRAIGHT TO THE SECOND X - I MEAN BAM OUR TOUNGES WERE GOING CRAZY - AND NEVER EVER HAD I FELT THAT KIND OF ENERGRY BEFORE. Mega - super mega charged - and I guess we both were just blown away. And when the kiss ended (and it lasted a little while) I look over and Fluffy and his girl are just watching us. And Fluffy just looks at me - then gives his girl this super kiss and then just waits for me - like OK what's next. And of course I'm thinkn' man are you kidding me - wasn't that the greatest thing ever - I mean what could be better than that - so Jan and I go crazy kissing over and over and just getting lost in each other.

 

[mamikin]

Did you finally treat Jan like the lady she was? I'm glad you finally saw her beauty. You were a naughty teenager but you did have a conscious - your saving grace. I'll check back for more of the story later.

 

[Steadygain]

Did you finally treat Jan like the lady she was? I'm glad you finally saw her beauty. You were a naughty teenager but you did have a conscious - your saving grace. I'll check back for more of the story later.

Ohhh Mamikin - I love you - I really do. You and Cornellia mean so much to me and I'm really glad you both want to come to the concert. The more I think about it - that will be by far the biggest and grandest event of my life - it's what I've been waiting and preparing for over the years. My lifelong persuit - and dream of dreams - finally coming true. I could really use your help when that day comes (both of you) - because you know me so well and could help me get ready - and keep me from flipping out. So I'll arrange for your rooms - at the same place I have my suite - and fly you out a few days before hand. With both of you there I should be able to be more relaxed - have the right energy - and do good (really good), otherwise I'm afraid I'll be a basketcase.

Cornellia - I've really been bumming lately. Please don't go.

 

[Steadygain]

I'll continue the story in just a minute - but first please know that everyone who said something about comming to the show - that means the world to me and I appreciate everyone of you.

OK - so Jan and I are having a great time (and I guess Fluffy and his girl are as well). It was really wild - because whatever I did - he did the exact same thing and his girl became less awkward and seemed to just groove with the whole situation. Well I can only take so much of this "monkey see monkey do crap" - and so I decide to take Jan outside where I can have a little privacy - and ya know really hold her close and get more into it. So we go outside and I find some spot and lean against the building and she just kind of melts into me (and I definately melt into her) and we just keep kissing for awhile. Well when I finished kissing I look over and there's Fluffy with his girl - Wow what a trip. But that's cool - cause Jan and I knew what we were doing was so totally for real - and I guess in away it was kind of an honor. So we just decided - hey let's just be ourselves and not worry about it. So that's how the date went - we danced and visited - but by far OVER AND ABOVE EVERYTHING ELSE WE JUST BLENDED OUR ENERGY AND BECAME ONE. That the was the coolest thing ever because she added so much energy to me - beautiful stuff - made me feel like supernatural - very wonderful.

 

[CorMaGa34]

I am ready for the concert of concerts! That's why you need to let us know well in advance so we can get ready... loose a couple of lbs here or there (to cause a good impression, that is :cheesy: and I don't know how long it will take me to loose several hundred lbs LOL I am kidding), get a face lift here or there, make travel reservations from wherever in the world we may be at the time, I mean there will be a lot of planning involved. The only thing is... you may have to know our real names to make hotel reservations... I can be Jane Doe, now that we know that your last name is either Smith or Johnson...

So, where am I going???

CorMaGa34 4 days to go

 

[Steadygain]

OK - so Jan was my first on a number of things: 1)my first carton of cigarettes 2) my first super mega kiss - total energy groove thing 3) and definately the first one I fell in love with.

But now it gets complicated, because my crowd was everything and that's how it always was. It was hard to blend with the crowd when we were together - because our heads were out in space. So for awhile we tried to do both but I'm not the same person as a madly in love boyfriend and as just one of the guys - and really it's the same thing for Jan - it was hard for her to be just part of the crowd when I was around. I guess what's really flipped out about this whole thing is that Jan was never part of that crowd prior to us falling for each other - but some of my lifelong friends she was close to already so she was the perfect fit. She was the Cornellia of our group - and undoubtedly the most amazing person I ever knew. I taught her to play guitar for a little while (but I'm a terrible teacher because I wanted to start her on my level) and that only made it more frustrating. So we stretched it out for awhile - and I don't know if anyone ever did more for me than her. I think she knew I needed the crowd - and when it came down to the bottom line they took first place because my friendships are incredibly deep and we'd been friends for ages. So Jan allowed it to happen - she and I became more and more a part of the crowd and less and less of each other. I certainly don't mean this in a cold sence - I mean we learned how to chill - so we could maximize our time with the group. It wasn't too long after that Mamikin joined the group and all of us really loved her. She was more introvertish - which is cool - cause it kind of made us more protective and it was really good for Jan. So that was how the crowd came into being. Wind Hunter was the guy I met on the caving trip who also joined our group and I'll tell ya about that later on.

 

[Steadygain]

I am ready for the concert of concerts! That's why you need to let us know well in advance so we can get ready...
So, where am I going???

CorMaGa34 4 days to go

You'll be the first to know - and I'll get rooms for everyone else in the reserved section. I just need you there ahead of the others.

I hope you're not going anywhere - or at least anywhere that keeps you from the MB.

I'm way behind - and been losing a little sleep - so got to run.

Have a wonderful day! ohh and Thank you!!

 

[Steadygain]

Wow - I could have crashed my car this morning I got so carried away. Usually the radio is on volume #3 or 4 - but today Motley Crue's GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS comes on and it had to be on #12 at a minimum. My left hand is going crazy - playing the stuff my mind is adding. The most wonderful thing is - most of the stuff I'm comming up with (at least - the general sound type of stuff) they start playing for real towards the end of the song - which really made my day. Immediately after that the song LICK IT UP - LICK IT UP by Kiss comes on. Now that is one I would definately be dancing to as I'm playing that - because it has such an incredible beat. Wow talk about putting me on top of the world.

So - I honestly hope that anyone who reads this - feels as good as me and has the most wonderful day possible.

PEACE, LOVE, AND HAPPINESS TO ALL.

 

[350zCommTech]

Wow - I could have crashed my car this morning I got so carried away. Usually the radio is on volume #3 or 4 - but today Motley Crue's GIRLS GIRLS GIRLS comes on and it had to be on #12 at a minimum.

So - I honestly hope that anyone who reads this - feels as good as me and has the most wonderful day possible.

PEACE, LOVE, AND HAPPINESS TO ALL.

Thank you,

You have wonderful day yourself.

Love that song and video.

 

[CorMaGa34]

Steady,

Thank you for sharing those "Happy Days" of your youth with us! I have not been able to comment on all your postings, especially from now till 31 Dec it's very bad, training 2 people to do my job, plus leaving written status on each and every one of my programs and contracts, but wanted to let you know how much we enjoy your narrative abilities, it's as if you get to transport us to a different time, space, and dimension, and suddenly we are there with you reliving it all. We become avid expectators of all you have done, from your active service days, to the concert with Piere, to the times when others have tried to kill you, when the earth moved to save your life, and I enjoyed immensely the one about the guy that came to your bedroom to beat you up and you filled yourself with all that energy that only trained people can acquire, that was awesome... The chapters about the nurse and Jan were also interesting, showing your softer side. :cheesy:, plus I enjoy the comments on music and the guitar players you like best. I like Segovia LOL actually I like a lot of them, from different parts of the world, I also like Montoya and Julian Bream, and also enjoyed the "devil" playing the guitar in that Ralph Macchio movie, so I tend to be more universal about stuff like that.

Happy Holidays to you too and everyone reading this post!

 

[Steadygain]

Steady,

Thank you for sharing with us!...we enjoy your narrative abilities, it's as if you get to transport us to a different time, space, and dimension, and suddenly we are there with you reliving it all. We become avid expectators of all you have done from your active service days and I enjoyed immensely the one about the guy that came to your bedroom to beat you up and you filled yourself with all that energy that only trained people can acquire, that was awesome...plus I enjoy the comments on music and the guitar players you like best. I like Segovia LOL actually I like a lot of them, from different parts of the world, I also like Montoya and Julian Bream, and also enjoyed the "devil" playing the guitar in that Ralph Macchio movie, so I tend to be more universal about stuff like that.

You've become a huge part of my life and heart! I'm thrilled you enjoy the connection and I'll do my best to keep it going. THANK YOU!! I wish I could tell you about the various Missions but it would totally dishonor the USA and those who counted on me to get the job done. You would like them way over the room incident. I can tell you that I never voluntered for any of them - instead I was selected and once even represented a global operation (which means out of the entire Military Services - they chose me). What's especially amazing is that my platoon Sgt. was always the one to tell me where to go for the next Mission - but he always stressed he had absolutely no clue what's going on. For the last one he told me to go to an area and my ride would pick me up and fill me in. So I go up there expecting a jeep - and at contact time this space age helicopter comes in - coolest thing I'd ever seen and that was my ride. In a huge sense I felt I was over the platoon Sgt. because all he knew was I got the job done, but he had no clue what I did and he would just have to wait to tell me about the next one. It was a very big honor for me - the greastest compliment they could ever give me is giving me a chance to prove myself.

As for music (guitar) - you only know about what Hendrix means to me and therefore your knowledge is limited to the electric side. With guitar you have electric and non-electric (which are wholly seperate entities). The overwhelming bulk of my music over the years is a non-electric more of a natural - folk - soothing sound. It's funny because some have asked me what my music would be classified as and I never really thought of a class - it is simply music that flows from me and the lyrics flow with it. If I can find a way to send you a song over the internet - I would be honored - for you and anyone else.

Anway, I love you too I know you've been busy and things have to be really hectic. Thank you so much for taking the time to send this message - I deeply appreciate it.

 

[Steadygain]

From Griffin:
The S&P needs to move higher and fill the gap from 1465-1468 to really demonstrate strength. Consider this a buy signal.

We'll there are two good reasons why we saw today's behavior: 1) the XLF aka - the financials have been flirting with a breakdown of their multi year channel and 2) the small/mid caps touched their multi year channel low.

We have competeing forces - the small/mid caps rebound applying upward pressure, the large caps putting downward pressure on the market and the financials playing the wild card.

If the upward momentum of the small/mid caps is able to pull the large caps into filling the gap at 1465-1468, then I would say we are seeing a rally and a movement back into stocks is probably the way to go. Given that the small/mid caps seem to be leading this rally, I would move into the S-fund rather then the C-fund.

Anything short of that scenario and I will stay fat and happy in bonds.

Weighing in this news - along with a very strong start this morning - I'll stay in S Fund (which had been my plan all along). Yesterday was good - and that's the kind of activity I need to keep me in the game - otherwise I'm in the bonds with Griffin.

 

[Steadygain]

Wind Hunter was the guy I met on the caving trip who also joined our group and I'll tell ya about that later on.

He was a lot like Wind Hunter in the musical sense - he knew the songs inside out and about every group worthwhile. He's the one that got me into Deep Purple, Ten Years After and some other bands. His main talent was singing and he would sound exactly like Ozzy or any other singer the radio/record was playing. Very cool dude and really smart (was in the most advanced class in high school and did well). Above everything else he was very cool and lived life pretty much to the fullest - so he was a perfect fit for our group. As we got to know each other more we spent a lot of time together - getting high and groovn' to different tunes. Alvin Lee was Ten Years After guitarist and I liked a lot of his stuff. One song in particular "Good Morning Little School Girl" has a lot of great guitar stuff. Of course my Wind Hunter friend knew this song note for note and he was there when I MADE MY MAJOR BREAK THROUGH. Up to that point I mainly played everything on the first 3 frets - and never took advantage of the entire neck. Alvin Lee pushed me beyond that - and since I play by ear - I'm quickly going all over the place. So the big event happened when he came to my house one afternoon - when I had the place to myself. My room's on the 3rd floor and our house is up on this hill - so the street is a ways off. Well I look out and see him coming up the road - so I crank the amp loud enough for him to hear it outside and keep it at this super cranked volume and then I play the main guitar stuff of that song (which goes on for quite awhile). So he hears it as he's comes up to the house and keeps hearing it as he's walking up the stairs and all the way until he gets to my room. Now just as I planned - he thought it was my record player cracked up - because he knew I was playing note for note. When he walked in my room - that was definately one of the biggest highlight's of my life. Man - you should have seen his expression - and before he really explodes (so to speak) he checks the stereo to make sure (and of course it's turned off).

Anyway - I guess everyone wants to come before Christmas so need to run - people waiting.

 

[kar_crazy]

MRA was GOOD kidney they had something they want to go and removei go wed to see what the weck it is and what we have to do feeling better not 100% but my color is sorta back

 

[Steadygain]

Thanks for the update KC - I'm glad you're doing better.

OK - so my Wind Hunter friend really spured me on and I started playing the guitar the way it was meant to be played. At that time I could come up with a lot of original stuff - but hadn't developed the ability to link it with lyrics (I guess I was too busy going the length of the neck). This is where Wind Hunter became the perfect combination - He could come up with the greastest lyrics right off the top of his head that went absolutely perfect with the guitar stuff I'm doin' off the top of my head. Both of us were like totally tripping on each other - he was as impressed with what I'm doin' as I am with what he's doin' - so we really jammed on throughout the years. It was wild - because we did stuff right off the cuff and therefore just played like from the soul - but after the song was over we were playing something else - and we never had anything memorized and so basically everything we did just came and went. Soon the rest of the group heard us and all of them are going crazy - we really did sound great together. The rest of the group felt what we played was too good to just be a one time event and were convinced it had to be recorded. So the next thing my long standing friend (the one who told me about the caving trip) takes us to the basement of his church - where they have a stage - and starts filming us and recording us. When others outside of the group stumbled across us, they all act like "Wow - who is that group (thinking we're playing another band's stuff) and are ready to run and get their album" and we had to keep telling everyone that it's our own stuff - that we make it all up as we play. A lot of people had a hard time believing that - and thought we were blowing them off - but the rest of the group convinved them it was really true and then they give this blown away look - like wow that's amazing. Well anyway, that's how I came to really play the guitar and without Wind Hunter it's hard to say how I would have turned out.

 

[Steadygain]

URGENT UPDATE
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Stocks are still cookin' and F Fund is losing - which is the best news possible. When F goes down - Stocks go up.

S Fund is still holding the lead for actual gains - because it aways pays more than C Fund. ​

 

[mamikin]

To Steady, Cornelia, and the others who frequent this thread:

I wanna wish you a Merry Christmas from the bottom of my heart!

I am taking the next two weeks off to spend with my children, hopefully make some lasting holiday memories, so you probably won't see me post until sometime after the new year. I hope that everyone has a safe and joyous Christmas with their family and loved ones. I will be monitoring my TSP account but I doubt that I get on this website much.

We need to plan another concert sometime after the new year - this time with the acoustic guitar music that Steady wrote about. Don't get me wrong, I love the electric guitar, but at heart I'm really a folkie ... a flower child wannabe.

Mamikin