HOPE and STRENGTH

[Steadygain]

Down in the shallow water, waves gently swayed slender grasses and reeds.

Her strength -- in so many ways -- was overwhelming. Knowing she was 'good' - her thoughts were clear and her faith in our potential to assess every circumstance and 'deal with it accordingly' make her such a joy to be with.

But I felt I'm getting too old for this s**t - and all the more the thought of them getting her was far too much for me to handle. So I decided to throw in the towel.

'Bean us up CB', I said with all the strengh and security as Commander in Chief of the Starfleet Enterprise.

'I don't think so' was CB's response.

'What you GD piece of s**t. Listen here you F ing little SOB - you better beam us up right now. I'm the F ing Commander in Chief'.

CB chuckled. 'Well that may be true but I'm the one at the control panel, so consider this a Training Exercise. Oh, and one last thing, Buster says to consider the power of White.' Then CB shut down communications.

The Power of White -- had its origins with the man who brought the STAR FLEET into existence. It was through him we found where everything derived its meaning and through it we found not only the answers to all of life's circumstances -- but it was our guide in everything.

It began with the Beatles -- and John discovering a Japanese woman that had 'good vibes' and his decison to make her fully a part of his world. He thought the idea of having a 'Japanese Beatle' would go over well -- but the other Beatles said FTS -- we don't want that bitch anywhere near us and there is no way in hell she's ever be one of us.

So John said - hey chill - I'll show you how the world at large will see her as our greatest connection. So he and Yoko got naked and had their picture taken - then put it on the next Beatle Album and sold it that way throughout the world.

BUT - The USA said - no way you long haired bastard hippies. They were totally convinced that anyone who saw that picture would turn into a cannibal totally imprisoned by taboo sexual desires and the world would be distroyed -- so they ripped of any trace of anything -- and sold it with a totally White Cover.

The Beatles - had anticaped the USA acting that way - and filled the songs with POWER - and the Power it gave was beyond what mankind had ever known before. Charles Mason - the founder of STAR FLEET - was the first one to show the rest of the world --- the POWER it Had -- and through it we learned how to live and interact.

Steady then knew -- what to do -- sprang to his feet -- and sang so loud it almost sounded like he was shouting:

'Why don't we do it in the road'.

 

[Steadygain]

'Why don't we do it in the road'.

Steady's response startled Blue - and she wondered if he had gone crazy. Her initial thought was 'What the hell'???? Then the certainty of them being captured gripped her - in a temporay state of paralysis.

Steady starts walking out -- swaying with a rhythm playing over and over in his head -- and continues singing loudly:

'Why don't we do it in the road'
'Why don't we do it in the road'
'No one will be watching us -- why don't we do it in the road'....


The Pygmies were overtaken by the Power of White --- and surrounded Steady -- dancing and swaying to the song in a spirit of delight.

Blue could tell he was reaching a part of the song out of his range and was now totally in tune with everything that was happening. She sprang to her feet and ran in the middle of the circle -- next to Steady and screamed to the top of her lungs:

'Ahhhhhhooooooooo' 'Why don't we do it in the road'
'Why don't we do it in the roo uuu oaddddd'

That was the moment of Transformation -- where the Pygmies became one with Steady and Blue ... and life was beautiful and in perfect harmony. They sang and danced and let everything fly free and wonderful.

Then the Pygmies hugged them and parted - with love and devotion and disappeared back in the woods.

Steady and Blue -- didn't say a word -- they just looked at each other and then went back in the lake.

 

[Bluehenge]

Steady and I didn't need to say a word because we were used to the effect the Power of White had on others as well as in total harmony with each other.

In silence we thanked our good friends CB and Buster for their ability to step in and do and say the right thing at the right time. We both knew if not for them I would have resorted to plan 'B' and my plans were usually just as wild, if not wilder than Steadys!

We always feel so at home in water and it didn't take us very long at all to get back into enjoying the incredible lake. Towards the middle of it a little group of islands rise out above the clear, blue water. "What if any of those islands have something that has never been discovered." I said. "Come on - race you to the one with that strange looking tree growing on it." Steady was still doing his usual - 'Ready, set, go' - as I swam off towards the island. Looking down into the water as we swam was so neat because nothing polluted this water. It was crystal clear and we could see right down to the bottom of the lake.

I turned to see how far ahead of Steady I was and was rather perturbed to see him gesturing enthusiastically for me to swim back to where he was.

I reluctantly headed away from the island I had hoped to explore and as I did so I saw Steady surface diving. I knew he must have spotted something really intersting so I swam as fast as I could and as soon as I reached him we both dove under the water.

We often marvel at how water is such a classical element and how it is a single substance yet home and sustenance to millions so it should have been no surprise that this body of water teemed with life.

 

[Steadygain]

I swam as fast as I could and as soon as I reached him we both dove under the water.

Below us was a large opening at the bottom of the lake - a circle about 10 feet wide. Whatever inspires people to explore into the 'unknown' is something Blue and I never lacked in. The more mysterous, the more challenging and daring -- is all the more we are drawn to discover and triumph over everything.

So we plunged through the darkness and felt our way through a small passage and emerged above the water in a huge cavernous room. A cave under the lake - filled with quartz that sparkeled and illuminated the entire room.

'WOW'! we said at the same time. I pointed to an area where we could get out of the water and explore the cave and Blue nodded in understanding and within a minute I helped pull her out of the water.

It was such an amazing world -- a beauty so unique -- a wonder to behold -- and one of those moments that are magical and beyond belief. We stood there for awhile looking over everything and soaking it all up. Then I held her hand and said, 'Let's go over here'.

We walked through an opening that gave the appearance of a huge cathertral - was at least 20 feet wide with walls that stretched at least a hundred feet high and arched at the top.

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After entering the adjoining room - we were startled when Nnuut sprang out of hiding and began taunting us. He's a Siberian Tiger that stood at least 8 feet tall on his hindlegs -- and he walks like a person.

When he first jumped out -- he gave such a ferrocious roar - it made our hair stand straight up - we were covered with goosebumps - totally frozen and it felt like our hearts leapt out of our chests. Both of us stood in shock - terrified - surprized.

In another split second we probably would have lost bowel and bladder control... but then he totally flipped us out.

Nnuut looked at us -- somewhat surprized by our reaction and said, 'Ahhh scared are ya?? then gave a little growl and moved his paws like he was boxing and said, 'Put em up' -- 'Come on - put em up', 'Put em up'.

He misunderstood our response of 'bewilderment and amazement' of him speaking like a person -- 'in English none the less' -- as FEAR.

I almost burst out laughing - when he raised one leg and said, 'Come on, I'll fight ya standing on one leg'...

Blue and I glaced at one another and Nnuut continues... 'I'll fight ya with one arm behind my back'..... 'Come on you chickens'....

...'I'll fight ya with my eyes closed'... and that sent me into a roaring laughter ....

Here's this tiger standing on one leg, an arm behind his back, talking to us like a person and with his eyes closed shut.....

...so my knees buckled and I fell to the floor in laughter ...

..at the same time Blue, who looks like a litte midget in comparison runs up and hits him in the stomach.

It probably felt like nothing more than a tap -- but it shocked him so much he started to cry...

Well I'm already laying on the floor doubled over and roaring in laughter and that may have ...been somewhat contageous ... but Nnuut's response all the more sent Blue into a huge fit of laughter and she was on the ground holding her stomach in laughter ...and we fed off each other a little while.

 

[nnuut]

I don't cry!

 

[burrocrat]

time hack?

can a mod please give an IP check on steady and blue? is one home (or remote login) and one work? maybe two terminals at work?

i don't mind if folks got some good action going on, heck even will take a bit of a peek if they are going to do it in public.

but it feels kinda creepy like i'm watching someone mentally masturbate here.

some folks (and site rules) say no multiple identities. heh, heh, he just said ****tities.

other option is: blue, identify yourself separate from your master.

 

[burrocrat]

aha! got it.

smart phone from parking garage/plaza on breaks and lunch. pre-type, then duck out and send.

don't know if can region search IP's but i'll bet my left nut they're close. and that's my good one.

someone confirm at next logins?

or, forever hold your piece.

 

[Steadygain]

I don't cry!

I can absolutely promise you that anyone I have (or will bring out) will be brought out in the best possible way.

I need to wait on Blue -- and whatever she writes I'll move from there

 

[burrocrat]

you might be waiting a while.

or at least as long as it takes to tell the wife you're running out for some toilet paper.

then slip the phone out of the desk drawer and run down to target where there is good reception.

don't forget to bring back the paper products though or someone might catch on.

 

[Steadygain]

you might be waiting a while.

or at least as long as it takes to tell the wife you're running out for some toilet paper.

then slip the phone out of the desk drawer and run down to target where there is good reception.

don't forget to bring back the paper products though or someone might catch on.

I'm not sure what your problem is Burrocrat - and if there is anything I have expressed (or that Blue has expressed) in our present story that has in any manner offended you -- then I'm sure it was not intentional.

I can absolutely guarantee you that I am not in any manner (directly or indirectly) doing anything to offend you.

Blue is a real woman - totaly women - who I know only through this site. She is very creatve, smart, amazing. So are many other women on this site that you have grown very fond of and close to. I asked her if she'd be willing to write a story together on the open MB - mainly because I felt she and I needed a place to lose our thoughts and bounce off each other and have fun.

I've needed a 'break' -- has been long overdue -- and decided (unknown to her) to start including others.

I know it must be hard for you to believe that a 'real woman' could be my friend -- but that's your problem and not mine.

I hope your father's surgery went well Burro - I promise I mean that and I really do hope that whatever 'sacred bonds' can be established - do get established and that both of you become special to each other.

I hope you and our mutual friend continue to share the bonds of love and all the good they bring to both of you.

I hope one of the most sacred friend (that you or I could ever know) has the picture -- and fulfills her promise to you.

My friendship with Buster, CB, Nnuut, or Blue does not take anything away from you.

I love you and in many ways I deeply admire you.

Steady

 

[burrocrat]

if you can figure out what's wrong with me i bet you could write a book and get rich. well, maybe... let's hope there aren't too many others in the market for that kind of read, that'd be crazy.

family is doing fine, much better, release soon and on to slow recovery, physically. mentally/emotionally is always a totally different story.

how's your famdamily doing?

didn't mean to be rude. well, actually i did, just not in a malicious way.

i can't help but feeling that you and blue are connected in some way. maybe some underhanded way, maybe a left hand upside down kind of way, feels like someone else is doing it that kind of way.

ya' know?

i don't have a prob with any 'real' woman you might have a relationship with, just think you should treat 'em right.

 

[Bluehenge]

Nnuut's response all the more sent Blue into a huge fit of laughter and she was on the ground holding her stomach in laughter ...and we fed off each other a little while.

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Birch stood unstirred and unimpressed in the background. He knew Steady and I and was far too used to our childlike antics to be amused. That mindset however, did not prevent him from being on constant alert, for he was the utmost, and I mean THE utmost warrior that ever roamed this earth. He was as tough as nails and held his responsibilities in the highest regard.

Once Steady and I settled down, Birch told us that he had assessed the situation and come to the conclusion that he should accompany us for a while. Fascinated, Steady and I listened keenly as Birch explained that as captivating as the caves were, this natural environment was like a giant warehouse that linked all things past and present and a largely unknown world most assuredly lay in their midst.

Nnuut had recovered his senses and listened in. He wanted to join us on the next part of our adventure and reminded us that as an animal he had a more instinctive nature than any of us. As he was such a rascal, we politely declined his request, said our goodbyes and followed Birch into the next chamber.

Nature always restores Steady and I; makes us whole, and although we didn't know what to expect, we were filled with the greatest joy possible.

The chamber was full of numerous life forms; frogs croaked, water trickled, flowers bloomed, and critters crept. The pull of various forces existed throughout and we felt a tremendous energy surround us.

 

[Steel_Magnolia]

can a mod please give an IP check on steady and blue? ....

I know when Blue first started posting Lady was suspicious enough that she checked Steady's and Blue's IP addresses. They were different. But as you say, lots of ways to manage that.

 

[Buster]

I won't speak in second or third person..seems like an identity dysfunction when you do..But I'll vouch for Blue..she the real deal..and my gut tells me she's a hottie too..:nuts:

 

[burrocrat]

I won't speak in second or third person..seems like an identity dysfunction when you do..But I'll vouch for Blue..she the real deal..and my gut tells me she's a hottie too..:nuts:

yeah, but you think pumpkins are hot too, gonna be making lots of pie with that one.

you think she can crush a can with 'em?

 

[Steadygain]

if you can figure out what's wrong with me i bet you could write a book and get rich. well, maybe... let's hope there aren't too many others in the market for that kind of read, that'd be crazy.

family is doing fine, much better, release soon and on to slow recovery, physically. mentally/emotionally is always a totally different story.

how's your famdamily doing?

didn't mean to be rude. well, actually i did, just not in a malicious way.

i can't help but feeling that you and blue are connected in some way. maybe some underhanded way, maybe a left hand upside down kind of way, feels like someone else is doing it that kind of way.

ya' know?

i don't have a prob with any 'real' woman you might have a relationship with, just think you should treat 'em right.

Dear wonderful man - I would NEVER undermine the beautiful heart and mind and soul that makes you deeply what you are. I could write a book and get 'rich' - but that's NOT what my life is about - it is NOT what drives me to live as I live and to strive for everything I hope to become.

The constant GOAL in my life - regarding YOU (or anyone else) is NOT to figure out what's wrong - for that puts the focus and endeavor in a Negative Direction and would only make things worse.

The focus - and the 'book' would be entirely based on what is right and deeply wonderful and sacred. So my focus would be on the deeper and truer aspects that most centrally define your 'character' and make you stand out as such a wonderful person who has 'endless value' and whose worth could never fully be 'measured' if we honestly opened ourselves to who and what you really are -- and allowed the 'Real You' to come to life.

Well I'll send this -- so as not to confuse various thoughts.

 

[Steadygain]

if you can figure out what's wrong with me i bet you could write a book and get rich. well, maybe... let's hope there aren't too many others in the market for that kind of read, that'd be crazy.

family is doing fine, much better, release soon and on to slow recovery, physically. mentally/emotionally is always a totally different story.

how's your famdamily doing?

didn't mean to be rude. well, actually i did, just not in a malicious way.

i can't help but feeling that you and blue are connected in some way. maybe some underhanded way, maybe a left hand upside down kind of way, feels like someone else is doing it that kind of way.

ya' know?

i don't have a prob with any 'real' woman you might have a relationship with, just think you should treat 'em right.

I hope they are 'fine' and 'much better' - really I promise I mean that with all my heart. The 'realease soon and on to slow recovery - physically, emotionally, mentality' is the SAME Story for you, me, Lady, and so many others.

Until we can 'RELEASE' everything - the stuggle goes on and on and even gets worse. The more we try to 'blame others' and refuse to take ownership of our independent decisions and actions is all the longer we stuggle to find FIRST - the very genuine inner peace we need - and SECOND - the full 'forgiveness and acceptance' of others.

It is always a 'long road' - always - and the best you can do is strive to live life as best as you can. You can't make others live and believe and be as you may inwardly long and crave -- nor can you make them honestly open their hearts and lives to the very deep 'beauty and love' you long to make known. All you can do is live your own life as BEST you can and hold on the the HOPE that they will 'change' from within - in a way that is BEST for everyone.

My family is doing wonderful. Carrie, my youngest, had her gallbladder taken out a few weeks prior. She daily had abdominal pain and problems for several years -- and just dealt with it and essentially ignored it. It turns out her gallbladder was not 'working right' and it strained so hard to do whatever it could - but it was messed up. When they took it out they found it had totally exhausted whatever any cell could give up. Now she's pain free.

My second daughter will have surgery around Thanksgiving - (a female thing) - with daily pain ongoing for years as well.

My first is still in S. Korea. I'm very concerned for her because there is a Korean man that thinks of marrying her. In their culture a 'minister' marries the 'Church' and the wife and family are more in last place. My daughter's happiness is everything to me - and I hope she can allow herself to seperate from the 'present' and find the 'future' she longs for.

My mother, moved from one hospital (where she had her surgery) to another where she is supposed to have 'rehabitation'. At over 90 her mind has gone pretty far. In one way it's a 'Blessing' - as my brother told me last night -- we can read the same cards and for her 'It's always like the first time' - so she really enjoys it. She no longer has this longing for my father to 'Take her home' - so she is 'very content' where she is and probably thinks she is home. She listens to CDs of 'older songs' and hears them with 'delight' - as though it's her fist time listening.

But she is way to content to stay in bed and it's hard to get her up and doing things. So I'm very glad she is 'Happy and Content' - but it's got to be taking a huge toll on my father and now my heart mostly goes out for him.

My wife is doing great - her health is very good and having her parents near by has been the greatest 'blessing' for everyone of us. We took in a new International Student -- and had her over last night for our first get together. She's from China - and is just 'perfect' -- as have all the others been so far. She is our first from China. It's funny because she looks so young and is short and blends so well with Carrie -- it's hard to picture her as already having a 'Masters Degree' and working on her Doctorate and being married too.

Lastly Ella still has this view of me as her 'husband' 'god' and 'king' - but I kind of enjoy that and I do everything to reinforce it. I'll make a motion for her to lay down -- then lay down on the floor next to her - take off her collar and 'worship her'. While I'm talking to her I'll watch her expressions as she stetches her neck for me to rub and massage fully and feel her paws press and curl on my chest as I'm getting her spine or chest...

Ann was a bit 'floored' I spent $200 on an electronic gaget - that I've been using for 'stress'. But considering how RARE - I ever spend on myself and pointing out that just the past week - I serviced her braking system; found her brake fluid was low and filled it; serviced my braking system and serviced my air conditioning system; cut down a huge tree and chopped it up and put is away... that I saved her over $200 right there :toung:

On the whole everything is going well. -- Thank You !!

 

[Steadygain]

didn't mean to be rude. well, actually i did, just not in a malicious way.

i can't help but feeling that you and blue are connected in some way. maybe some underhanded way, maybe a left hand upside down kind of way, feels like someone else is doing it that kind of way.

ya' know?

i don't have a prob with any 'real' woman you might have a relationship with, just think you should treat 'em right.

I'm perhaps a bit too sensitive -- especially when it comes to something I honestly do have the deepest and most 'sacred' feelings for.

I'm sorry if I came across too strong - or perhaps too challenging or offensive. I've just been having to deal with how others have expressed their 'deepest views' of me -- and that's been hard.

One has gone to great lengths to make someone I have the deepest love and admiration for - to project me as 'An Abuser'. So it's not YOU but it's having to confront concepts and beliefs that totally go against everything I've tried to be -- and to honestly and openly be real and genuine.

Please know - PLEASE - that I have had to deal with 'malicious' views and attacks directed against me (many times) - so I'm a bit sensitive.

BLUE and I - are connected in the exact same way that LADY and I were connected (and probably are deep down) - and that Alevie and I are connected. The more you deeply allow yourself to be 'OPEN' and 'TRUE' is all the more -- the most 'sacred bonds' of UNDERSTANDING - ACCEPTANCE - LOVE - and DEVOTION are formed and that is what our FRIENDSHIP and RELATIONSHIP is based on. Yet this is also TRUE with You, Birch, Squale, Frixxxxx, Buster, CB, Nnuut, Tom and many others.

You think I should 'treat them right'. Do you mean to LOVE them and regard them as deeply as possible - no matter how they regard me?

Do you mean to honestly be willing to 'let them go' and do everything possible to encourage them to 'follow their heart' - to REALLY find and hold on to what they 'Believe' will bring them the greatest happiness and fulfillment - over the course of their life??? All the more if that means letting them -- and encouraging them to part from me??

Does 'treating them right' - give them 'Total Recognition' for who and what they are -- for honestly knowing and believing in their 'GIFTs' - in deeply enjoying the depths of their strengths and characteristics -- and NOT counting their flaws 'against them' --- but trying to stay with them in a manner ....

that does NOT cross boundaries ....

I am learning ...and striving to be a man that regards 'women' the way they long to be regarded. BUT - this is a 2 way street my friend and 'they' should treat me 'right'. It should be a 'mutual' endeavor.

 

[Steadygain]

I know when Blue first started posting Lady was suspicious enough that she checked Steady's and Blue's IP addresses. They were different. But as you say, lots of ways to manage that.

Sweet precious LADY

BLUE is probably the closest 'woman' to you that I've known to this day.

When you honestly allowed your life to be 'open' to me and discover me and accept me and acknowledge me -- as ONLY you could do...

...you found a Blue White Diamond -- and in that was a 'Hope and Promise' of something deeply 'sacred' and 'wonderful'...


But I did NOT know how the handle the way that 'Reality' -- transformed my perspective of my own life -- and my life with you and others.

So I 'crossed boundaries' - or tried to cross them - over and over - but with the very deepest and 'best intentions' - yet my mindset and actions were hugely destructive and forced you to avoid me.

After a long absense -- you offered me a 'Real Friendship' and a chance for me to honestly 'prove myself' once and for all. That is when I deeply believed you were very sick and close to death.

I didn't know you offered 'Friendship' because you felt sorry for me. I had no idea the only reason you offered 'Friendship' was because you were 'concerned about Judgement' - for the way you treated me.

I totally believed your 'Friendship' was REAL and I responded in the only way I knew how to respond. I did everything I could possibly do with how I believe in GOD and LIFE - and I meant nothing but the highest possible LOVE and RESPECT and the greatest HONOR and DEVOTION.

I did not mean to 'Kill Lady' - I meant ONLY for GOD to use 'my life' as however it would most serve you for HIS Glory.

You are the one that pretended to be 'Dead'. You are the one that 'acted as though you were your husband'. You are the one who strove to come up with elaborate plans on how to return. You are the one who over and over strives to use 'Alevie' as a 'cover' and me as a 'target'.

I am still the 'Blue White Diamond' and I always will be. No one wants LADY back more than me ---- I mean really just think about it -- I'm like the rarest of the rare.

Just be OPEN and REAL with everyone. Don't try to use me or Alevie or anyone else as an excuse. Just tell us YOU are SORRY - and WE will LOVE you and FORGIVE YOU.

My heart goes out for you -- it really does.

 

[Steel_Magnolia]