if you can figure out what's wrong with me i bet you could write a book and get rich. well, maybe... let's hope there aren't too many others in the market for that kind of read, that'd be crazy.
family is doing fine, much better, release soon and on to slow recovery, physically. mentally/emotionally is always a totally different story.
how's your famdamily doing?
didn't mean to be rude. well, actually i did, just not in a malicious way.
i can't help but feeling that you and blue are connected in some way. maybe some underhanded way, maybe a left hand upside down kind of way, feels like someone else is doing it that kind of way.
ya' know?
i don't have a prob with any 'real' woman you might have a relationship with, just think you should treat 'em right.
I hope they are 'fine' and 'much better' - really I promise I mean that with all my heart. The 'realease soon and on to slow recovery - physically, emotionally, mentality' is the SAME Story for you, me, Lady, and so many others.
Until we can 'RELEASE' everything - the stuggle goes on and on and even gets worse. The more we try to 'blame others' and refuse to take ownership of our independent decisions and actions is all the longer we stuggle to find FIRST - the very genuine inner peace we need - and SECOND - the full 'forgiveness and acceptance' of others.
It is always a 'long road' - always - and the best you can do is strive to live life as best as you can. You can't make others live and believe and be as you may inwardly long and crave -- nor can you make them honestly open their hearts and lives to the very deep 'beauty and love' you long to make known. All you can do is live your own life as BEST you can and hold on the the HOPE that they will 'change' from within - in a way that is BEST for everyone.
My family is doing wonderful. Carrie, my youngest, had her gallbladder taken out a few weeks prior. She daily had abdominal pain and problems for several years -- and just dealt with it and essentially ignored it. It turns out her gallbladder was not 'working right' and it strained so hard to do whatever it could - but it was messed up. When they took it out they found it had totally exhausted whatever any cell could give up. Now she's pain free.
My second daughter will have surgery around Thanksgiving - (a female thing) - with daily pain ongoing for years as well.
My first is still in S. Korea. I'm very concerned for her because there is a Korean man that thinks of marrying her. In their culture a 'minister' marries the 'Church' and the wife and family are more in last place. My daughter's happiness is everything to me - and I hope she can allow herself to seperate from the 'present' and find the 'future' she longs for.
My mother, moved from one hospital (where she had her surgery) to another where she is supposed to have 'rehabitation'. At over 90 her mind has gone pretty far. In one way it's a 'Blessing' - as my brother told me last night -- we can read the same cards and for her 'It's always like the first time' - so she really enjoys it. She no longer has this longing for my father to 'Take her home' - so she is 'very content' where she is and probably thinks she is home. She listens to CDs of 'older songs' and hears them with 'delight' - as though it's her fist time listening.
But she is way to content to stay in bed and it's hard to get her up and doing things. So I'm very glad she is 'Happy and Content' - but it's got to be taking a huge toll on my father and now my heart mostly goes out for him.
My wife is doing great - her health is very good and having her parents near by has been the greatest 'blessing' for everyone of us. We took in a new International Student -- and had her over last night for our first get together. She's from China - and is just 'perfect' -- as have all the others been so far. She is our first from China. It's funny because she looks so young and is short and blends so well with Carrie -- it's hard to picture her as already having a 'Masters Degree' and working on her Doctorate and being married too.
Lastly Ella still has this view of me as her 'husband' 'god' and 'king' - but I kind of enjoy that and I do everything to reinforce it. I'll make a motion for her to lay down -- then lay down on the floor next to her - take off her collar and 'worship her'. While I'm talking to her I'll watch her expressions as she stetches her neck for me to rub and massage fully and feel her paws press and curl on my chest as I'm getting her spine or chest...
Ann was a bit 'floored' I spent $200 on an electronic gaget - that I've been using for 'stress'. But considering how RARE - I ever spend on myself and pointing out that just the past week - I serviced her braking system; found her brake fluid was low and filled it; serviced my braking system and serviced my air conditioning system; cut down a huge tree and chopped it up and put is away... that I saved her over $200 right there :toung:
On the whole everything is going well. -- Thank You !!
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