Springs of LIFE

Steadygain said:
would never have announced her passing the way I did, the morning you told me. I had no other way of knowing.
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I am deeply under ‘Huge Convictions’ and am so terribly WRONG to let anyone on the Message Board believe Lady’s LIFE or DEATH can be based on ‘My Personal Experience’.

PLEASE – accept my deepest and most sincere apologies for ever allowing such news to be known. I know what GOD did in me was very Huge and I never knew such a change was remotely possible – this side of heaven.

Because the change in ME was directly tied to what I strove to do for Lady – then I had to believe something equally ‘Big’ happened to her. But I have no idea what GOD did with her – nor could I know; but only what happened to me.

Death before Dishonor is the code I live by; and I believed I was called to intervene. It is only with that knowledge that anyone could understand how I behaved. I NEVER gave my Life more fully to anything and all the more ‘Believe in the Cause’ I set to accomplish; not by ‘my power’ but wholly and completely through the power of the God I serve.

My ultimate Goal ~ through His Spirit of Grace and Mercy ~ was to make whatever Sacrifice is possible on her behalf. I willingly ‘gave all’ and was more than willing to ‘endure all’ even if it meant years of pain and misery for me; even if it meant taking my life so she could live Free.

From this ‘pursuit’ I experienced a Transformation far beyond what I had ever known before. Therefore I all the more believed God ‘honored me’ for the Sacrifice I stove so fully to accomplish.

But I could NOT KNOW – what happened to Lady – I only know what happened to me.

I alone would be RESPONSIBLE for any feelings of Anger, Resentment, Betrayal, or any other form of Negative Energy that any of you could have. What happens in Life is far beyond me; all I can do is bear with what is at hand and live accordingly. Lady had nothing to do with the pain and misery she was forced to endure; and all the more having a sense that an end may be near. So my view of life and my role in life was lost in that endeavor.

AGAIN - I could NOT KNOW – what happened to Lady – I only know what happened to me.

What DID happen would be as if Birch ~ not only lost the slightest trace of ‘Negative Energy’ towards Jimmy Carter ~ but all the more that he was so totally at PEACE with him that he had ‘nothing’ but the greatest ‘Love’ and a huge sense of ‘Contentment’ – ‘Honor’ and ‘Respect’ for him.

For ‘me’ to LOSE all my ‘Baggage’ – allowed me a ‘FREEDOM’ like nothing I had ever known. I somehow felt that FREEDOM was directly connected to something LADY Experienced. The ‘Higher and Purer LOVE’ I found was something I also linked directly to LADY.

But I was WRONG to let anyone think Her LIFE could hinge on me. It cannot hinge on me and my Experience is wholly within me – but I have nothing to do with her LIFE or DEATH.

If there was the slightest trace of ‘Deceit’ in what I did; if in any manner I had tried to ‘Trick You’ or ‘pull a Stunt’ – then NO change could have been possible; yet what did happen is a change deep within and one I alone can appreciate.

So please know that I totally understand any sense of ‘Anger, Betrayal, Animosity, Resentment, or Hatred and sense of Revenge’ – and I fully deserve to be The ONE and ONLY Source to which this is directed. I am wholly responsible for whatever any of you went through and it all points to me.
 
I do NOT mean to express that I act on my own or that I have unwavering faith in "my" skills”.


Sorry :o I truly meant to express the 'NOT'
 
I do mean to express that I act on my own or that I have unwavering faith in "my" skills”.

Yet this expression cannot be avoided if we focus on the capsule.

Perhaps the greatest insights we can obtain are by examining the ground breaking work of the Theologian, Birchtree. In his book, ‘Don’t Gay the Hornet’ he deals with the greatest Truth any of us could possibly discover. He found that everything we can know is divided into either the ‘Capsule’ or the ‘Soul’. The Capsule is the Body – or what he refers to as the Hornet.

Now get this, according to him, everything is either the TRUTH or it is a LIE. He has found that only a ‘Soul’ drawn to the Heart of GOD can know the TRUTH. It is only as the ‘Soul’ is drawing to the Heart of GOD that the TRUTH can even be known; and this knowledge alone wholly reveals who we are and what we are. He has proven that a Soul drawn to the Heart of GOD will disregard the Capsule (the Body – or the Hornet) and all things attached to this flawed and corruptible aspect of our existence. For as we draw to the Heart of GOD we find a TRUTH that far exceeds anything that could ever be known otherwise. This ALONE is what ultimately brings us into everlasting fulfillment and allows us to make HIS Glory known.

In fact he shows the TRUE HEART of GOD and all that was meant to happen with His People.

God yearned for His People to have the deepest and most far reaching relationship possible. He longed for His People to allow their ‘Souls’ to come to LIFE and find the greatest possible LIFE by drawing to HIS Heart. But their Hornet got in the way and everything became distorted and totally misunderstood. Thus his central message is ‘Don’t mess with the Body’ but focus on the ‘Soul’.

Only with this knowledge can we possibly understand how God yearned for ‘Israel’ to know HIS Spirit of Love, Power, and Strength – and to know it in such a manner that they would LIVE in HIS Glory and have the Best LIFE imaginable.

The Heart of all GOD meant to express is largely seen in Deut 6:4

Hear, O Israel: the LORD our God, the LORD is one.

This is the only TRUTH, the greatest TRUTH, and the most central aspect of our existence. It is only as the ‘Soul’ is drawn to the Heart of GOD and finds their LIFE being filled with GOD’s Glory we can be all God meant us to be; to know LIFE in the fullest measure; to realize more completely that the Capsule is meaningless in comparison.

God tried to give them everything and did all He could to open their Hearts and Minds but they were too caught up with the Body and all by which the Body keeps the Soul from the Journey to the Heart of GOD.

If the People could only have known ‘The LORD our God is one LORD’ they could have totally transformed all that could have happened. For GOD was to be everything they knew and lived for. ‘The LORD is our God’ was to be the fountain by which all they knew would come to life. ‘The LORD is our God, the LORD alone’. Had they allowed this TRUTH to bring their Souls to the Heart of GOD – they all the more would have continued this journey and became His HOLY People. His people would be ‘Set Apart’ from all other people.

6:5 And thou shall love the LORD thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy might.

A ‘Soul’ drawn to the Heart of GOD would know this and it is absolutely impossible to miss. A ‘Soul’ that is deeply drawing to the Heart of GOD finds a TRUTH that goes beyond everything else; and with this TRUTH we can’ t help but LOVE the LORD with all our heart because our hearts and lives are so transformed through His GLORY. Our ‘Soul’ yearns ever more to draw even closer and we live for that and nothing more – because NOTHING can possibly compare to that.

6. And these words, which I command thee this day, shall be upon thy heart;

For GOD was to be the essence of all they knew and that is all they needed to know. Then they would have had ‘unending abundance’ and known nothing but His GLORY.

7. And thou shall teach them diligently unto thy children –

For every FAMILY would be centered on this.

, and shall talk of them when thou sits down in thy house, and when thou walks by the way, and when thou lies down, and when thou rises up.

For all this was meant to be NATURAL and EASY and something that would FLOW and keep FLOWING.

8. And thou shall bind them for a sign upon thy hand, and they shall be for frontlets between thy eyes. 9. And thou shall write them upon the door-posts of thy house, and upon thy gates.

Here this was wholly meant as a CELEBRATION of LIFE and all these things would be totally from a Heart and LIFE that is overflowing in God’s Glory. For a ‘SOUL’ that is deeply drawn to the Heart of GOD could not help but Celebrate. That is EVERYTHING.

Just the opposite, for I trust I was given some tools and therefore I am to use them to the best of my ability, that if I follow the promptings the power is magnified, and good gets done, not by me but through me.

Then you alone can know. Is your ‘Soul’ deeply drawing to the Heart of GOD and yearning to know His GLORY and live in a TRUTH that supersedes all other ‘truth’ or is the ‘Body’ holding you back?

The ‘Soul’ will find a ‘TRUST’ that completely ‘transforms you’ and the tools you were given will be known in infinitely greater proportions. Only then can you find the extent of your ability; for then the ‘promptings’ will be largely all you know, and what gets done will far exceed what you could even imagine.
 
I believed entirely in what you did for Lady,

What happened with Lady was beyond anything I had ever done before. It is only with a deeper knowledge and an appreciation of joining with someone who had little to no energy and was going through the worst and most 'hopeless situation' you can even barely understand what happened after I met her.

She did not know I was with her at first and all I could do was let the slightest little trickle of my LIFE seep into her. It was her body in general that began soaking everything up - but her mind was unaware of my presence and she did not realize what was happening until her body was strong.

Once she mentally became aware of me and she knew me and deeply realized everything that was happening then she wanted to be filled in other ways and to find the most wonderful and thorough 'fulfillment' and 'completion' throughout every area of her existence. That is when I held her and poured my life out for her in the 'Deepest and Purest Love' I had ever known.

And it has changed me ever since that moment.

It was so far beyond anything I had ever experienced before - and I could feel her getting totally filled with the most radiant Glory and I kept going until she was overflowing.

Then she disappeared and I knew GOD had allowed me to fulfill the Greatest Mission that I could ever imagine. I simply do not allow 'Failure' but I did not know this was possible; I only knew there was no greater Hope or Promise I could offer her.

if I had not, I would never have announced her passing to the rest of the message board the way I did, the morning you told me. I had no other way of knowing,

I don't see how anyone could have believed anything I was telling her other than Lady. I am so messed up in so many ways and I'm the kind of person that seems to have a way of drawing 'negative energy'. What makes it so worse is that for years and years I didn't hesitate to confront it; or sometimes bring it about.

Now it's so strange because none of that stuff matters anymore and I refuse to even remotely be apart of anything Negative. All has disappeared and I long for the Positive.

and I told everyone, because of my faith in you and your knowing what had happened. Even tho there was no way you could have known, unless things had happened exactly as you had described. I believed in you, and so I told anyone and everyone who asked for an explanation.

I am deeply in awe. I need someone to have 'faith' in me because it's the only way I can become whatever God wants me to be. I'm just a guy that is flawed through and through and I make no pretense about being anything 'special'.

Yet because God was able to use me in a manner I would have never thought possible then I have to believe that this is just the beginning and there are no limits to what God can do.

Above all since this is true for me - then all the more it absolutely has to be true for everyone else.

That all this happened in my first internet forum all the more has me amazed. So I want nothing more than to take on a new and better direction.
 
been bought and paid for.

I largely see this 'Institionalized Thought' as destroying most of what Christianity was honestly meant to be.

Yes, the 'mental acknowledgement of Jesus taking all the 'burdens' and totally taking our 'sin' and all things attached -- is a nice concept - but it's largely meaningless until this becomes a 'revolutionary event' within us.

It would have to be an open and clear testimony of what God has done in us to have any relevance. If I say 'all is bought and paid for' YET everytime I'm ever in the presence of my bother there are sources of 'Negative Energy' working against me and somehow keeping me in 'bondage' - then what does that expression mean?

But if somehow I can discover the Glory of God on such a level that His LOVE totally transforms me THEN I am the one who is most 'amazed' by the change. For then when I am with him I will 'totally be at peace' and have NO bitterness or awkwardness or anything remotely negative.

Then I can say I have been 'bought and paid for' because NOW there is a Peace and Love that brings enormous Growth and Life has a very rich beauty. This changes everything and allows us to experience the FREEDOM we were truly meant to know.

To find this 'freedom' our lives have to be stretched to discover Faith on immensely deeper levels. Then we can say 'I have been bought and paid' because we honestly and 'authentically' come to know His Glory and experience a freedom that redefines us. So this should be an open proclaimation and demonstration of what God has done in our LIFE.

Otherwise it is nothing more than a vague mental concept that makes us no different from all the others.

Perhaps the greatest and most central reason why we fail in this endeavor is because we try to do it alone. We live too privately in this regard for a wide variety of reasons. Yet when we will come to realize that Life and Love and the immense Faith all of us so deeply long for is totally DEPENDENT on our interactions with others - then we can find all we were meant to find.

God alone can make changes of that magnitude. But this deeper Faith stems from our interactions with others. Without stretching ourselves there is no growth. Without really giving our life there is simply no way that we can find the LIFE ~~ God so longs to give us.

So I want that more and more ~~ because the more I come closer to His Heart is all the more I can make His Love Known in fuller and more wonderful measures. All the more the Healing is through and through and I am even more equipped to do 'miracles' and 'wonders' and bask in all GOD deeply represents.

For that alone is True Religion.
 
didn't scare me off

I'm really glad because in so many ways I feel I'm different and sometimes it may seem good and sometimes it may seem bad -- but that a 'difference' is even there can be unsettling and you have to wonder?

Do they think I'm weird? or strange?

Do they think I'm fickle and can break or change at the drop of a hat?

All of us are truly different because we are so unique!

Also we are all so hugely driven by our emotions -- which are ever rising and changing and waning back and forth.

know you won't betray

Please don't say that and I beg you with the deepest sincereity to not put me in a place I could never truly obtain and keep. I am too weak not to 'betray' and too confused to be totally 'loyal' and not let you down in some manner.

As I am growing in a Deeper Happiness and feeling such wonderful 'Completeness' - I see such a huge danger of me...

...getting too content with myself

...feeling that I am strong (enough) and prepared (enough)

...thinking that somehow I can remain true

ALL the more I pray that God would keep me humble, would remind me of the painful past least I get arrogrant or proud, but keep the pain wherever He has put it because I sooo enjoy the freedom.

But I will fail you - and I will betray you in a variety of ways - because my human nature and the world in which I live is so deeply flawed. Even with the strongest efforts and the most deeply genuine endeavors -- there will be 'misunderstandings' and there will always be forces that interfere and attack and DO ALL to wreck whatever GOOD can happen.

To build 'Trust' in a world seeped in 'Mistrust' is no easy accomplishment. To have 'Love and Respect' as the grounding foundation in a world that is cold and distant; intollerant and bitter; angry and hugely mistrusting -- is also next to impossible.

So if I don't 'betray' you, then let GOD receive all praise and glory for His Love alone is perfect and true.

WOW!! I said I want to challenge you in ways that are good and I want you to challenge me.

This is perhaps the Greatest possible challenge you could give me. If I (in my tremendously flawed and weak condition) do not betray you it is only because I am 'Proving that GOD is greater than me'.

So I will do my best to live up to that challenge and when in someway I do 'fail you' - 'betray you' - 'disappoint you' - or 'let you down' ...

Then His Spirit of Grace and Mercy should all the more allow you to forgive me and help me to be even better.
 
As communications may develop here I will share what would surely be considered 'Universal'

and NEVER would I compromise anything.

nothing should stand between us - if we honestly make a commitment

a heart that hurts so deeply for the pain others have is more fully expressed when we have bore so much pain too. Not because of anything that 'we are' but because GOD Himself can do such wonders in those that have been through so much.

nothing more than GOD allowing us to extend our lives THROUGH His GRACE -- for His Glory

I'm certain that GOD brought 'us' into each other's lives. That we need you every bit as much as you could ever need us.

That is the Wonder of GOD and His marvelous Grace; for however any life can touch your life ~ God is all the more touching lives through you.

have made mistakes ...

I have been in that same 'place' for many years and some of those moments were truly overwhelming. YES - somehow God got me through but I have come to find (only recently) that you or I can't do it alone and have any real success.

That is why everyone of us has to come to a place where we can 'Believe' in someone and experience the 'Healing' and 'Strength' and the awesome Power of God's Spirit working in us as another is genuinely drawn to stretch their heart and life in the deepest and richest love and all the more in the Strength and Glory of God's Grace.

When you feel and experience a LOVE that is penetrating deep within and throughout your being -- it is the most 'Confirming and Wonderful Event' possible because with this all beauty and worth is brought to light.

Everyone one of us has thousands and thousands of pockets to our existence that have never been touched -- and they can not be touched until someone has the opportunity to reach within you and move to the furthest spaces. When this happens then areas that have been gray and black start to fill with color and LIFE is vibrant and wonderful. You honestly are overwhelmed because you realize all you are finding -- is something that was Deeply meant to be and NOW at long last you are coming to find LIFE as GOD intended.

For GOD most certainly designed 'us' to be FULL and overflowing.



 
I have found a 'Happiness' that is so wonderful - it's simply amazing. It is so far beyond anything I have ever known before. Never has LIFE been more 'blessed' and 'overflowing' and to see how His Spirit can actually live in me - and to be 'A Blessing' to others is truly overwhelming.

This comes to life on the greatest levels when we make every effort to give all we can 'wholly for the benefit' of another. Yet in so doing the other gives to us -- and so it is equally a 'willingness to receive' everything possible and to let this stretch thoughout our existence and find us and fill us on every imaginable level.

LIFE is so much more abundantly meaningful and I'm finding that many I see and (their spouses or aquantainces) are brought to tears because they are so overwhelmed with 'feeling understood' - 'acknowledged in a deeply meaningful way' - 'touched on levels that have been missed' -

And I (within myself) can take NO CREDIT - for I am nothing more than a Jar of Clay. I am a man that is flawed in every possible manner and if anything 'Beautiful and Perfect' - 'Wonderful and Fulfilling' can happen in me - and through me then GOD Alone gets all Praise and Glory.

Yet becoming a more Active Vessel -- especially on a consistent basis -- is making LIFE more and more 'Wonderful'.

The Abundance of PEACE is transforming me.

This morning my doctor told me to stop one medication I'd been taking for Hypertension (high blood pressure) and cut the other medication by a third. Will see him in another month.

I'm just amazed -- because the only difference is the 'Life' that I've found through this Site and all that GOD is doing.
 
Steadygain

Steadygain

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It was during the weekend of my neices' wedding that everything finally came together. For the very first time I was FREE to be with my brother and have nothing but LOVE. The first time there was not a trace of 'Negative Energy' and all was deeply Good.

God is LOVE and that LOVE is so far beyond what any of us are capable of knowing or living or possessing unless we have allowed His Spirit to take charge and rule in us and guide us in all we do. This is how we come to know the 'Ultimate Karma' and Live it and Share it.

Over the years I'd failed in this endeavor by NOT realizing how this was meant to happen and remain consistent.

But finally I was able to find - what was deeply meant to be Free, Easy, and Natural. That flows with prosperity. For only when we find the opportunity to 'give our life' on the highest and truest level - can we find how EASY all was meant to be.

When we deeply let GOD know we are willing to give our life so another might live; That we are genuinely willing to take the pain (and sickness) so another person can be healthy and free of all pain; then everything is brought to life and we are wholly complete.

Once we find this Truth - it is EASY to give our life in other ways - with the same endeavor of bringing the Ultimate Life in others and allowing them to know better health and be 'complete'.

When are willing to devote ourselves on that level - and seek it with all our being - will find a FAITH that connects us with GOD on the kind of level Jesus had when He gave His Life for us.

This changes us so completely that our view of LIFE is totally transformed. All our goals and aspirations change and those changes force us to forget the 'meaninlgless past and move forward with greater devotion'.

What then is the Key to LIFE ?

'Ultimately we NEED a Spirit that 'Blends' with us in a way that spurs greater 'Belief, Inspiration, and Deeper Devotion and Committment'. For that ALONE creates a LIFE that 'flourishes' and grows and blossoms. This 'Blending' is based on an existence that is deeply dependent on each other WITH essentially everything centered on GOD and revealing God's Glory.
 
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