Sharing our Views

[Steadygain]

The posts here are all I can handle today and for me they were perfect.

I'm not trying to ignore anyone and I hope that's evident.


Have a great day everyone !!

Steady

 

[Steadygain]

What I am deeply longing for - is for everyone of us to be as open and true as possible and I deeply believe the more we let the child be known the better off we are.

I have never met anyone - and I really mean this. I have never to this day met anyone that allowed me to know them on a more heart felt and deeper - meaningful manner - that I did not Love and Admire. That is true with every single person on this MB and it is true in real life.

I use to think that people from other countries were different from 'us' - and I guess that's kind of 'bad' or shows how deeply I did not understand how much we really do have in common.

I think that's pretty much impossible to avoid - especially for someone like me who grew up in such an exclusive - sheltered world.

My father had the hardest life of anyone I've ever known. He was brought up in the poorest conditions imaginable. His life was way more difficult because he was a 'bastard child' - and his brothers and sisters had a 'legimate' married mom and dad. He had the same mother as them - but he was hugely despised by some of them and very much from the 'world at large' simply because of the circumstances which brought him to life.

When I was growing up - (a totally innocent little boy) - my mother told me to never ask my father about his childhood -- because it was too painful to think about and he never talked about it. She let me know that for his sake I should just enjoy who and what he is.

So he grew up in a shack without water or electricity. I'd say he wore whatever was passed down to him and had to make due with whatever was available. They moved from place to place way out in the country in West Virigina - until he stayed at the shack. For him life was as normal as possible and he often went in barefeet and frequently encountered snakes and all the other things that fill the mountains. But he was deeply a very decent person and he did his best to make out of life what he could. So he would do what he could to earn some money and would usually give whatever he could to help his mom out.

But his life was just the opposite of mine. He made sure that I had everything and I'd never known what it was like to not have a nice home, to ever go hungry, or not have good clothes. It's just amazing how much I did have compared to him ~ and there is no way I could have ever known (or appreciated) that difference as a baby and a child growing up. I didn't have to struggle to earn whatever I got and didn't have to go out of my way to protecting what I have and making them last. My mother cleaned the house and did our laundry and everything was freely and graciously provided and LIFE was simply wonderful.

When my father finished high school he joined the USMC. For him there was nothing besides the Marines - it's what his brothers joined and it was pretty much all he lived for. He did very well as a Marine and when his committment ended the GI Bill allowed him to go to college. He was the only one to get college degrees. He was the only one to rise as far as he did. BUT you would NEVER know it by the way he lived his life and interacted with everyone. He was (and is) a very humble man -- always striving to do whatever he could possibly do for himself and set aside what he could for the years to come. So he was an electrician of the highest degree, and a plumber of amazing tallent, and a wood worker, and everything else a house could need -- but he simply learned these things by dedication and determination. If a washing machine, car, or anything went wrong he somehow figured the problem out and corrected it. So that is the example I'd always known from day one.

 

[Steadygain]

I guess it's possible for someone to think that I always like to talk about GOD -- but that's NOT really true.

On the whole I find it difficult to talk about GOD because the potiential for huge conflicts and misunderstandings is simply too overwhelming.

So TALK is the very last thing I would want. What I thoroughly enjoy is knowing there is a 'Peace' for those who honestly yearn for harmony and this is what I would deeply love to share with everyone here and in real life.

No -- I can honestly say that talk of GOD is pretty meaningless compared to finding a LOVE beyond ourselves and letting the purest LOVE flow out freely to everyone. I believe the greatest FREEDOM that anyone could ever find is in the truest and perfect LOVE and I am convinced this Love is available for all who seek it and not just seek it -- but crave for it to take hold of everything.

For there undoubtedly a Spirit of Grace that goes beyond any and all bad feelings and this does far more to convey the deep essential truth of all GOD represents. His Spirit of Mercy all the more grants us the FREEDOM to let go of all disappointments - sorrows - and pains and find a 'Foregiveness' we don't seem capable of having without Him.

So NO -- I am not anxious to talk about GOD all the time at all. What I am anxious for is looking for the things we have in common and doing all I can to show that I am true.

If in any manner I have projected myself as a 'Liar' then I am terribly sorry for my undeniable 'flawed human condition'. But I would most certainly welcome anyone to read through my posts and my stories and feel the Spirit I have freely tried to offer. I would say on the whole you will find I am hugely 'Transparent' and have been very open and deep down I seriously believe you will find I am deeply genuine and largely have been all along.

If you see me as a hypocrite - it is because there is only so much pain; or so many attacks ; or so many disappointments that I can take before my feelings are hurt or I feel damaged. If hurting too deeply or being too troubled makes me a hypocrite then I am one. But I do everything I can to give these feelings up and somehow there has always been a way for them to disappear. I am far from perfect and deep down I have to believe that all of us are in the same boat. So I am no better (or worse) than any of you.

My understanding of GOD is largely 'unique' to me and I am comfortable with my beliefs. I believe that GOD is both the Creator and Designer of everything there is and of all that could ever be. I believe GOD designed me specifically as He did so that I could know how Perfect He truly is. I all the more believe that GOD designed a woman to be the perfect compliment for how He designed me. That is why I marvel so deeply over the way a woman is designed. In her I fully acknowledge the missing pieces and I see more and more how we are meant to make each other complete. So for me it is a journey ~ but it is the most fulfilling and most rewarding journey I could ever imagine. In all things I try to acknowledge GOD and give Him the Honor and Glory - because for me the Ultimate Goal is finding GOD as deeply and richly as I can.

So if I have offended anyone - in anyway way - I beg your forgiveness. I hope with all my heart that I can love everyone and do it freely and in the Spirit of His Grace and Mercy.

So thank you so much for putting up with me and all my quirks and flaws.

Have a great night everyone !!