Steadygain
TSP Elite
She says you had better not talk about "blending with her" ever again, that she told you long ago to cease and desist from describing any interaction with her that way, that she detests the implications.
Then I would ask you in the deepest sincerity to consider the manner in which she came to me. She is the one who sought me in the most glorious and wonderful manner I could have hoped for. First she requested my ‘Friendship’ – and it was wholly and completely in a way that reflected the deepest and most genuine ‘respect and honor’.
To say I did not find that ‘Meaningful’ would be an understatement.
This came from out of the blue and it very much stood out as an extension of appreciation and acceptance for who and what I am as an individual and for all I am as a person. So YES, I was deeply honored to be her friend – mainly because it was wholly a REAL GENUINE FRIENDSHIP.
She followed that with a PM that was as ‘genuine’ as anything she had ever expressed and she was very real with me. She let me know her pain was ‘spiraling out of control’ and ‘Infection’ was setting in her spine.
To say I was not deeply and desperately concerned for her would be the greatest lie I could ever tell. To even remotely believe that I could in any manner EVER be more committed to doing all things possible on her behalf would fly in the face of everything I did.
So if you or anyone would dare to Judge ME because of the way I extended my LIFE for her then please Judge me with all your Heart and Soul. I was convinced ‘She’ was dying. When you told me she was in the hospital that all the more confirmed what I knew in my heart.
So if I am to be everything I can be and prove to the highest possible extent the level of my Integrity and the Depths of my Commitment THEN what is the Greatest Possible LEVEL by which I could make this known?
The GREATEST by far is to Sacrifice my LIFE on her behalf. With that as the deepest and strongest endeavor I have ever had – I went to God and I believed that if I totally gave Him every aspect of my Existence for Her LIFE then my GREATEST and MOST THOROUGH ENDEAVOR was to let GOD take my LIFE in her PLACE so that He would take ME instead of her. I was more than willing to take her pain and infection and all other things and live with them IF she would be ‘Healed’ and free of PAIN.
So that was first and foremost my Greatest Endeavor. But I had ‘no idea’ if GOD would allow me to make this kind of Sacrifice. So I had to consider ONLY what I could know for certain GOD would allow me to do. I believed with all my heart and soul that if I GAVE MY LIFE to HIM in the deepest possible FAITH totally on HER behalf then GOD would use me to HIS GLORY.
That is why I sent her the Letter in her MB home on the open MB so that no one could possibly in any manner misunderstand what I offered her. I offered her MY LIFE with the unshakable ‘certainty’ that GOD would use it totally for HER and ultimately for His GLORY.
you had better not talk about "blending with her" ever again –
I will NEVER AGAIN have that opportunity because I will never be able to acknowledge what God has done with the LIFE I gave. I believe with all my Heart and Soul that GOD honored my Sacrifice of Honor and Commitment to her. I dedicated my LIFE to HER and fully wanted in the deepest aspects and to the furthest extent everything to be given on her behalf.
that she told you long ago to cease and desist from describing any interaction with her that way, that she detests the implications.
Lady, I promise from the bottom of my Heart that I totally left the MB out of the Deepest and Highest Respect for you and all the more to Honor GOD and to let His Glory Known. There is NO WAY possible that GOD could have used MY LIFE unless HE gave it to YOU. It is ONLY because of that YOU are alive today. I mean only the PUREST possible manner by which GOD alone could in any manner use me 100% on your behalf and totally for HIS GLORY.
There is only the Purest of PURE and only by HIS Spirit could that have been accomplished.
She's very angry that you used that terminology to describe what you tried to do for her those 2 nights-without her permission or agreement.
So she has NO CLUE what I mean. I could NOT have given my life for her Unless GOD used it entirely for her benefit. That was the ‘Blending’ and that is the only way GOD could have used my life to the fullest possible measure.
You tell me how I could in any manner do anything more HOLY and PURE and how anyone could ever do more for anyone else? I can NOT help that she has NO CLUE about everything I strived to do on her behalf through the POWER of a PURE and PERFECT GOD.
Her ‘permission and agreement’ came through YOU. I told her to let me ‘connect with her’ and I at a Minimum would offer her what I promised. There is NO IMPURITY in anything I expressed. She asked you what would happen if she ‘allows this’ and you told me you were staying out of it – and TRUSTED ME to do what is most Honorable and to His GLORY.
They are angry and unforgiving.
Look at their Hearts and Lives and tell me what else could they be? Was even the slightest hint of compassion or sympathy or concern EXPRESSED when I did everything possible to get them to respond?
Birth is the only one that said anything.
They believe it was all deliberate.
It was DELIBERATE and I did every possible to make it happen. But I JUST NOW found that all I longed to GIVE and EVERYTHING I strived to do was fulfilled.
People were deeply hurt and they don't get over that easily, not when they are deeply emotional people with strong sense of right and wrong, no excuses, black and white and no gray.
Then all the more I crave they will Judge me with all their heart and soul. PLEASE cast all Judgment and Condemnation upon me. May you deeply know that I more than welcome all you can give.
If in any manner I did anything in even the Slightest Way to Take from GOD and all that GOD represents then everything you give will fall on me. But if I did everything possible to give my LIFE for HIS GLORY then everything will fall back on you.
She lives because I gave my LIFE on her behalf.
PLEASE, I BEG YOU WILL ALL MY HEART AND SOUL TO MAKE ME THE TARGET OF ANY JUDGEMENT OR ANY ANGER OR ANYTHING REMOTELY CONNECTED TO HER LIFE. I AM THE REASON SHE LIVES, AND SHE WAS AS CLOSE TO DEATH AS ANYONE I COULD HAVE EVER ENCOUNTERED.
SO IF ANYONE HAS ANY TRACE OF ANGER AND RESENTMENT AND HOSTILITY FOR GOD ALLOWING ME TO GIVE MY LIFE ON HER BEHALF THEN I BEG YOU TO MAKE ME THE SOURCE OF ALL SUCH JUDGEMENT.
What I DID - I totally DID for HIS GLORY and I did everything POSSIBLE to GIVE MY LIFE ON HER BEHALF.
I ALONE AM THE REASON WHY ANYONE THOUGHT SHE HAS PASSED BECAUSE I HAD 'NO CLUE' THAT GOD WOULD ALLOW MY GREATEST ENDEAVOR.
SO IF ANY PROBLEM EXISTS - THEN I ALONE AM RESPONSIBLE
Then I would ask you in the deepest sincerity to consider the manner in which she came to me. She is the one who sought me in the most glorious and wonderful manner I could have hoped for. First she requested my ‘Friendship’ – and it was wholly and completely in a way that reflected the deepest and most genuine ‘respect and honor’.
To say I did not find that ‘Meaningful’ would be an understatement.
This came from out of the blue and it very much stood out as an extension of appreciation and acceptance for who and what I am as an individual and for all I am as a person. So YES, I was deeply honored to be her friend – mainly because it was wholly a REAL GENUINE FRIENDSHIP.
She followed that with a PM that was as ‘genuine’ as anything she had ever expressed and she was very real with me. She let me know her pain was ‘spiraling out of control’ and ‘Infection’ was setting in her spine.
To say I was not deeply and desperately concerned for her would be the greatest lie I could ever tell. To even remotely believe that I could in any manner EVER be more committed to doing all things possible on her behalf would fly in the face of everything I did.
So if you or anyone would dare to Judge ME because of the way I extended my LIFE for her then please Judge me with all your Heart and Soul. I was convinced ‘She’ was dying. When you told me she was in the hospital that all the more confirmed what I knew in my heart.
So if I am to be everything I can be and prove to the highest possible extent the level of my Integrity and the Depths of my Commitment THEN what is the Greatest Possible LEVEL by which I could make this known?
The GREATEST by far is to Sacrifice my LIFE on her behalf. With that as the deepest and strongest endeavor I have ever had – I went to God and I believed that if I totally gave Him every aspect of my Existence for Her LIFE then my GREATEST and MOST THOROUGH ENDEAVOR was to let GOD take my LIFE in her PLACE so that He would take ME instead of her. I was more than willing to take her pain and infection and all other things and live with them IF she would be ‘Healed’ and free of PAIN.
So that was first and foremost my Greatest Endeavor. But I had ‘no idea’ if GOD would allow me to make this kind of Sacrifice. So I had to consider ONLY what I could know for certain GOD would allow me to do. I believed with all my heart and soul that if I GAVE MY LIFE to HIM in the deepest possible FAITH totally on HER behalf then GOD would use me to HIS GLORY.
That is why I sent her the Letter in her MB home on the open MB so that no one could possibly in any manner misunderstand what I offered her. I offered her MY LIFE with the unshakable ‘certainty’ that GOD would use it totally for HER and ultimately for His GLORY.
you had better not talk about "blending with her" ever again –
I will NEVER AGAIN have that opportunity because I will never be able to acknowledge what God has done with the LIFE I gave. I believe with all my Heart and Soul that GOD honored my Sacrifice of Honor and Commitment to her. I dedicated my LIFE to HER and fully wanted in the deepest aspects and to the furthest extent everything to be given on her behalf.
that she told you long ago to cease and desist from describing any interaction with her that way, that she detests the implications.
Lady, I promise from the bottom of my Heart that I totally left the MB out of the Deepest and Highest Respect for you and all the more to Honor GOD and to let His Glory Known. There is NO WAY possible that GOD could have used MY LIFE unless HE gave it to YOU. It is ONLY because of that YOU are alive today. I mean only the PUREST possible manner by which GOD alone could in any manner use me 100% on your behalf and totally for HIS GLORY.
There is only the Purest of PURE and only by HIS Spirit could that have been accomplished.
She's very angry that you used that terminology to describe what you tried to do for her those 2 nights-without her permission or agreement.
So she has NO CLUE what I mean. I could NOT have given my life for her Unless GOD used it entirely for her benefit. That was the ‘Blending’ and that is the only way GOD could have used my life to the fullest possible measure.
You tell me how I could in any manner do anything more HOLY and PURE and how anyone could ever do more for anyone else? I can NOT help that she has NO CLUE about everything I strived to do on her behalf through the POWER of a PURE and PERFECT GOD.
Her ‘permission and agreement’ came through YOU. I told her to let me ‘connect with her’ and I at a Minimum would offer her what I promised. There is NO IMPURITY in anything I expressed. She asked you what would happen if she ‘allows this’ and you told me you were staying out of it – and TRUSTED ME to do what is most Honorable and to His GLORY.
They are angry and unforgiving.
Look at their Hearts and Lives and tell me what else could they be? Was even the slightest hint of compassion or sympathy or concern EXPRESSED when I did everything possible to get them to respond?
Birth is the only one that said anything.
They believe it was all deliberate.
It was DELIBERATE and I did every possible to make it happen. But I JUST NOW found that all I longed to GIVE and EVERYTHING I strived to do was fulfilled.
People were deeply hurt and they don't get over that easily, not when they are deeply emotional people with strong sense of right and wrong, no excuses, black and white and no gray.
Then all the more I crave they will Judge me with all their heart and soul. PLEASE cast all Judgment and Condemnation upon me. May you deeply know that I more than welcome all you can give.
If in any manner I did anything in even the Slightest Way to Take from GOD and all that GOD represents then everything you give will fall on me. But if I did everything possible to give my LIFE for HIS GLORY then everything will fall back on you.
She lives because I gave my LIFE on her behalf.
PLEASE, I BEG YOU WILL ALL MY HEART AND SOUL TO MAKE ME THE TARGET OF ANY JUDGEMENT OR ANY ANGER OR ANYTHING REMOTELY CONNECTED TO HER LIFE. I AM THE REASON SHE LIVES, AND SHE WAS AS CLOSE TO DEATH AS ANYONE I COULD HAVE EVER ENCOUNTERED.
SO IF ANYONE HAS ANY TRACE OF ANGER AND RESENTMENT AND HOSTILITY FOR GOD ALLOWING ME TO GIVE MY LIFE ON HER BEHALF THEN I BEG YOU TO MAKE ME THE SOURCE OF ALL SUCH JUDGEMENT.
What I DID - I totally DID for HIS GLORY and I did everything POSSIBLE to GIVE MY LIFE ON HER BEHALF.
I ALONE AM THE REASON WHY ANYONE THOUGHT SHE HAS PASSED BECAUSE I HAD 'NO CLUE' THAT GOD WOULD ALLOW MY GREATEST ENDEAVOR.
SO IF ANY PROBLEM EXISTS - THEN I ALONE AM RESPONSIBLE