I bid you all adieu

Reason: buncha lousy Sandanistas :embarrest::sick:

To honestly persue a deeper understanding of LIFE we have to be far more objective and really KNOW why we regard one another as we do.

Deep down - on the most basic and truest level - it was but one little sperm cell among many thousands that impregnated an egg - and that alone is how each and everyone of us came into being.

So on the 'Truest' and 'Deepest Level' all of us are FULLY EQUAL. For none of us had anything to do with either the source of the cell that impregnated the egg or the source from which the egg came. From this LIFE came into being and everyone of us originated in the exact same manner -- each of us totally 'equal' in every possible way.

So where is the difference. One is adored with the finest clothing from the moment he was born. All he has ever known were people worshipping him and regarding him as the Greatest to ever live. In his 'world' every female that ever saw him was drawn to come to him, bow before him and kiss his feet. All of them wholly did this with the deepest gratitude for the priviledge of being able to serve him and they always held his foot (or ankle) in such a way that he could tell they were deeply genuine. So as he grew into a man - there were moments where he allowed them to serve him more fully. This was totally out of 'RESPECT' for their genuine desire to serve him and he was 'honored' to grant them a higher and more thorough service.

One is by mere chance born an American and has never known anything but the greatest abundance.

'One represents the over whelming 2/3rds majority of all born on this planet. Please note the difference:
Our home would immediately lose everything - except for a few old blankets, a table, and a wooden chair. Each person in the family would have the oldest suit or dress, a shirt or blouse.

A pair of shoes for the 'head' but none for the wife or children.

Kitchen would have some matches, a small bag of flour, some sugar and salt. A few moldy potatoes in the garbage will need to be retrieved to provide most of tonight's meal. At most we would have a handful of onions and a dish of dried beans.

Bathroom - no running water or electricity.

NEXT GOVERNMENT SERVICES GO.
No postmen
No firemen
School 3 miles away with 2 classrooms
No hospitals or doctors nearby

MONEY
The entire family could have $5 dollars.'

Robert L. Heilbroner, The Great Ascent: The Struggle for Economic Development in Our Time. pp. 33 - 36.

Yet in the TRUEST and DEEPEST MANNER - all were completely equal
 
So my darling and I
make love in the sand
to salute the last moment
ever on dry land
our machine has done its work
played its part well
without a scratch on our bodies
and we bid it farewell

Starfish and giant foams
greet us with a smile
before our heads go under
we take a last look
at the killing noise


Hey that's pretty cool man !!

I was just lookin' for a way to share somethin' with ya.

Last week I listened to Voo Doo Child (live version) everyday going to work and coming home. The one by Stevie Ray Vaughn and it's so perfectly in synch with Jimi it's amazing.

Well my eyes roll to the back of my head and I fog out and go into a trance and I'm always on this stage holding the guitar straight up over my head to a stack of amps above me.

It's weird cause my hands are on the steering wheel but I can feel my chest muscles movin' to the guitar and everything I'm doin'. Some how I'm able to stay safe but I still go crazy.

What shocked me was when I went to the bathroom one night and was kind of shocked by my reflection -- it looked like I'd been working out with weights and I'm like whooooa

So it made me think of you Jimi ~~ Jr

Hope all is well
 
So my darling and I
make love in the sand
to salute the last moment
ever on dry land
our machine has done its work
played its part well
without a scratch on our bodies
and we bid it farewell

Starfish and giant foams
greet us with a smile
before our heads go under
we take a last look
at the killing noise
 
Ma Cherie, I bid you all a fond adieu

I posted this so it could be read from ‘Front to Back’. Please know I honestly believe this is my last 'personal message' - so felt it should be open to everyone ~~ because so many others are part of 'us'.

Sweet darling Alevie,
Lady said, “You are the only one I’m saying goodbye to – for all the others I’ll be just a fading memory”. So in like manner I am doing the same with you.

I do not know God’s Infinite Plans in their entirety but I have a deep sense for what I believe is TRUE. With my limited knowledge I believe He sent me here for You, Squale, and Birch. I have done what I can and have to leave everything in God’s Hands from here on.

I will only screw things up by staying longer and muddy the waters. My human tendencies to interfere are not acceptable and I cannot allow my emotions to complicate things or create confusion. So I honestly believe GOD is telling me ‘All is well’ and I can leave in Peace.

So will end with a blending of your recent communication, clean out everything and shut down the PM system.

Beloved, I am in awe of God's grace and your heart,
To Him be all Glory and Praise; and may my heart and life all the more be given to Him in every possible manner.

That you are having the conversations
I can only do what God has brought forth, or allowed to happen.

I am in tears of joy and gratitude and nearly speechless.
Oh Alevie, don’t let my ‘flawed’ nature and ‘male wiring’ deceive you. If God can do something with a worthless piece of junk like me – just think what He can do in you.

God is doing a mighty work, praise His name.
That is why I must leave – so He can be better known; without my ‘interference’.

All things work together for good to those who love God and are called by His name.
May all who have been called, bring this TRUTH to light.

THE verse that first gave me the hope I needed at a truly despairing time in my younger life, and gave me the courage to place my life unconditionally in His hands and trust Him for the future no matter what came next. I see Him at work again here.
Sweet precious woman, this is so deeply the essence of all LIFE was meant to be from that day forward. It is NOT a once and for all thing on ‘our part’. No one could possibly survive in ‘this world’ without a constant renewing. We have no other choice but to find this ‘courage’ and do this over and over ~ otherwise the World WILL overcome us. The only way we could ever ‘have VICTORY over the World’ is by doing exactly as you describe.

I am overcome by the depth and power of God's love extended through you.
Honey, I’m your big brother and that probably makes you see me in a ‘better light’.
 
You are indeed the blazing blue-white diamond Lady said you were, and I am becoming labradorite.
May this be the foundation of everything that all could know.

There was stuff posted on beltway
I was driven from that site and had a very ‘Huge Peace’ about it. No matter how good our intentions may be and no matter how pure our motives – or anything – we are NEVER to be a source of Negative Energy.

I felt God telling me to leave. So I left and did not go back and all was well.

Then on 7/26 I went back only to make one Post – but did not do anything else.

Yesterday I searched out whatever may be worth confronting but God was Gracious (and I did not find anything) and fortunately did not do anything I may have later regretted.

Surely this was meant to let me know ‘The time has come’.



I need to tell you something about Birch.

As I am your big brother – Birch is mine. He is over me; yeah, I know it’s hard to believe but it’s true. If I am a ’blazing blue-white diamond’ then he is even beyond that; or is a higher Gem.

He was broken, or disconnected, when having to deal with the extremes by which our World can get totally messed up. Under similar circumstances I also had to put God aside but promised I would not reenlist and would return to Him when I got out. Baby, you just don’t know, in some situations you have to do things God would not ‘approve’ but somehow GOD was able to overlook and I did not have to bear with His convictions.

Alevie, I need you to see how Birch stands out.

You told me that the ‘Stress’ the beltway had on Lady made her condition so bad she had to leave. Then Lady herself told me "I thank you for your good wishes. And I wish I could tell you that the pain is better. But it continues to spiral and now other things like infections are taking their toll."

It is ONLY because of this I responded the way I did. All the more I ‘believed’ if everyone had a chance to respond – then ‘we could all bring a reversal’ – ‘a cure’.

But sweet adorable Lady, I cannot allow you to deprive the others from making their 'Love and Admiration' known.

Many on this MB have a Depth of LOVE ~ and ADMIRATION ~ and the Greatest APPRECIATION for everything you so Deeply Represent. So I have to give them an opportunity to make it known - for they may Love you as deeply as me.

Yet in my heart of hearts I sensed it was too late and made it known:

I have NEVER made this 'offer' to anyone - and I don't in the slightest way remotely care about the opinions, and all the more the judgments of others, when I say this to you.

Baby, if this is it and you are ready to 'pass' PLEASE let me Connect with You. I am willing to take your PAIN if need be - but GOD is not like that at all Honey -- and it will be shattered and disappear. I want to take You to the most Wonderful Place you could ever imagine and Experience it with you - and You can go from there if that is honestly and deeply what you long for.

Be at Peace my Most Wonderful Friend -- and Please Trust me.
 

Steadygain

TSP Elite
There is only ONE that responded. He is the only one that KNEW beyond the shadow of any doubt what I was saying ~ and no one has ever in any manner demonstrated a Greater FAITH nor a deeper conviction for what God can do ~ and WILL DO ~ in me.

Lady,
If you are getting ready for the journey
Here he is clearly letting her know that I am ready to take her on ‘The Last Journey’.

know you are not alone.
He also knows that she would have to be in a terrible condition for me to offer this. Despite losing what ‘he treasures’ perhaps more than anything else on earth – he encourages her.

Have strength from family.
Do you have any idea the magnitude of LOVE he is sharing?

I cried over Spaf and I'm near tears now for you.
He alone – knew what I was saying and there was ‘no doubt’ – none.

Life will go forward. That's all I can say.
I have never acknowledged a greater display of LOVE than what he just expressed.

So please know ~ when this Gem comes to LIFE ~ he WILL blaze a Glory that far exceeds what you have seen in me.



I took her that night and the following morning look at his words:

I'm so sad.
I believe she had the dignity of choice. Again there is no one that could in any manner have made this more known than him. He is the only one to ‘publicly’ make it known.

She was a very brave woman. Peace be with you.


Now let go to his very ‘Last Words’.
Her last words to me were: "Feel me in the wind and rain because I'll be there." I will always remember her courage and honor her. She was the best
Birch is NOT the kind of guy that says something half heartedly. I will ALWAYS ‘honor her’.


So my darling little Girl, I leave with the greatest ‘contentment’ and I see nothing but Hope and Promise.

Rick, the springs of life thread is wonderful, I'm so glad you started it.
Baby, it was more as a closing dear friend than a beginning.

The healing God is doing in your physical wellbeing is a miracle of what His love can do.
What His LOVE can do is way beyond what any of us could ever imagine.

I am praying for the ministry God is giving you through this site, that He will do great things here through you.
My deepest and greatest prayer is that GOD will do this all the more after I leave.

I love you Rick, your little sister
I am so deeply content with all that GOD had done. There are so many wonderful things that have happened here and so much more to come. I deeply believe the BEST is on the way and I hope you are a very central part of it.

I will finish the story next week, as I cannot leave something that big undone. Then I will send you and Birch my email in the event either of you would ever ‘need’ me. Somehow God has released me from Squalebear and I feel that nothing was left undone. That whatever I was meant to do has already been accomplished.

I never had a sister until I met you. I love you too Baby.
 
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